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The thing about life is you are supposed to do what is needed no matter what. If you're physically and mentally sick you still have to do what's needed.
So here I am, ready to go. Tattoos (and identitiy) safely hidden underneath a lot of clothing. Hope the redness of my eyes from today's crying jag fades by the time I get there. Ah, well, people with colds have red eyes. I can pull it off.
But the funny thing is that you can do your very best and push through all your problems and there is no one there to be proud of you but yourself. At that point do you not ask "Am I to be proud of myself for doing shit I never wanted to do in the first place when I felt like shit? Seems like a stupid thing to do, never mind to be proud of".
And these are the things I think about when I am getting ready in the morning.
So here I am, ready to go. Tattoos (and identitiy) safely hidden underneath a lot of clothing. Hope the redness of my eyes from today's crying jag fades by the time I get there. Ah, well, people with colds have red eyes. I can pull it off.
But the funny thing is that you can do your very best and push through all your problems and there is no one there to be proud of you but yourself. At that point do you not ask "Am I to be proud of myself for doing shit I never wanted to do in the first place when I felt like shit? Seems like a stupid thing to do, never mind to be proud of".
And these are the things I think about when I am getting ready in the morning.