Struggle with forward motion
I guess I'm complaining because I have nothing grandiose in my life right now. Wake, go to work, think about writing secondary apps, play video games instead, look at secondary apps, waste time on the internet, write a few sentences, go to bed. Nothing to write home about, nothing to really make me wake up eager in the morning. Maybe everyone has these lull times and it will just pass in 3 weeks. I guess the fear is that I'll wake up and it will be 30 years and I've been too comfortable with the same old same old. Again its all about the attitude right? Perspective on life? Which just makes me want to blame myself for lack of action. In the search for satisfaction I've found...apathy. And a grudging acceptance that things are the way they are. I don't think that's living the abundant life. I sure hope it isn't.