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i am one to bitch. so here goes.....
i, about 3 months ago went on a break with my lover. a month and a half later, she breaks up with me one night when i am drunk and being an ass. for some reason i didnt take this so seriously because she continues to tell me that she loves me and cannot wait to see me. so i think, alright, everything is good, and then, tonight, i think to ask her if there is anyone else that she likes in cali-fucking-fornia. apparently, there is. why did she have to like someone else before i did? i am the damnedest creature, aside from the great lestat. ahhhh. my love might no† love me. what, in that case am i to do? if she doesnt want to be with me, i want closure. i dont want an ambiguous non-relationship. what the fuck??!?!?!?!?!? i hate this. is she leading me on, in her nightly "i love you"'s or does she truly love me and not like this kid half as much as she loves me? who the fuck knows? what the fuck am i to do? i am afraid i have pissed her off. fuck. guidance, please.