i suck
i waste my time here, don't i?
what is the point i am trying to get across? huh?
is there a point anymore?
i remember a time when i had something useful to say.
what happened to me?
was it the weed?
i swear my intelligence quotient has steadily declined these last past two years.
i've already corrected about twelve typos that i would never have made before.
what in the fuck is happening to me?!?
she's addicted to nicotine patches
she's addicted to nicotine patches
she's afraid of the light in the dark
dont try to be the one person
who will stay
just to say you never left me,
father lucipher
why does any of it matter?
why do i care that my IQ is declining?
i'm going to die eventualy, right?
i'd like that answer to be "no," but it would be quite brash to make such a statement.
almost cocky.
realy, i should be in college right now, about to get my bachelors, according to my IQ scores.
so, why then, do i feel like an imbecile?
am i?
if so, i wasn't always.
i havent done a damn thing that could be considered productive since i've been back in dallas.
i havent even picked up my guitar, my journal, scketch pad, or poetry book in a month at least.
why the fuck am i even sharing this with.....wait. i'm not sharing this. it will just be logged here with my other unseen posts.
oh fucking well.
its not as if i have a message to send other than the fact that my mind is fucking deteriorating.
am i suffering from dementia?
come one and all to see the lonely man
bitching to himself again......
hey! i've got an idea! i'll post a poem right now. it's not like anyone will steal it and claim it as thier own, as only one person will read it.
this one's for you, fanny, regarding my supposed unrewarded altruism!
cardiovascular crusade
my heart is burried in sediment
i'm forced to find it with no hint
away from me is where it went
that is my predicament
i've lost it not for oversight
as it left me in broad daylight
i failed to argue or to fight
that's why it's still gone tonight
and if my heart i can't regain
because of prominence in pain
then i will take the path pre-lain
and never will i search again
what is the point i am trying to get across? huh?
is there a point anymore?
i remember a time when i had something useful to say.
what happened to me?
was it the weed?
i swear my intelligence quotient has steadily declined these last past two years.
i've already corrected about twelve typos that i would never have made before.
what in the fuck is happening to me?!?
she's addicted to nicotine patches
she's addicted to nicotine patches
she's afraid of the light in the dark
dont try to be the one person
who will stay
just to say you never left me,
father lucipher
why does any of it matter?
why do i care that my IQ is declining?
i'm going to die eventualy, right?
i'd like that answer to be "no," but it would be quite brash to make such a statement.
almost cocky.
realy, i should be in college right now, about to get my bachelors, according to my IQ scores.
so, why then, do i feel like an imbecile?
am i?
if so, i wasn't always.
i havent done a damn thing that could be considered productive since i've been back in dallas.
i havent even picked up my guitar, my journal, scketch pad, or poetry book in a month at least.
why the fuck am i even sharing this with.....wait. i'm not sharing this. it will just be logged here with my other unseen posts.
oh fucking well.
its not as if i have a message to send other than the fact that my mind is fucking deteriorating.
am i suffering from dementia?
come one and all to see the lonely man
bitching to himself again......
hey! i've got an idea! i'll post a poem right now. it's not like anyone will steal it and claim it as thier own, as only one person will read it.
this one's for you, fanny, regarding my supposed unrewarded altruism!
cardiovascular crusade
my heart is burried in sediment
i'm forced to find it with no hint
away from me is where it went
that is my predicament
i've lost it not for oversight
as it left me in broad daylight
i failed to argue or to fight
that's why it's still gone tonight
and if my heart i can't regain
because of prominence in pain
then i will take the path pre-lain
and never will i search again