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wow, it smells great down the hallway. it smells like fresh laundry and i love it.
so naturally i resort to this thing when i need to vent about something. why else would i write? my room is pretty dirty, and it sucks. i guess i should clean it up tonight. almost all of my friends are going out to a club tonight, The Forum. while i would like to go, i really need to be in the mood, or drunk. am i either right now? no.
these past couple of weeks have been mega-stressful. monday i got really depressed, i think it was my first time actually depressed. i stayed in bed half the day, then moped around the other half. sometimes even when talks turn out good, that doesnt mean you feel good afterwards.
i wonder if i am as nieve as some people think? when close friends are trying to pull things over my head or encourage things they know id be uncomfortable with, i wish theyd just be honest instead of sneaking around. maybe its too late now, the damage is done, ill get over it though, with time.
history repeats itself. ive found this to be true, this time maybe its repeated itself, but i think the outcome will be different this time. i have more faith and more trust. maybe this is what i needed to happen.
so i miss olivia. i havent seen her in forever and we really need to catch up on each others lives.
me ben and jessica are looking at apartments for next year. hopefully we can have something figured out in the next couple weeks.
ummm. for now im good. cant wait til rascal flatts this weekend. i need quality time with these guys.
so naturally i resort to this thing when i need to vent about something. why else would i write? my room is pretty dirty, and it sucks. i guess i should clean it up tonight. almost all of my friends are going out to a club tonight, The Forum. while i would like to go, i really need to be in the mood, or drunk. am i either right now? no.
these past couple of weeks have been mega-stressful. monday i got really depressed, i think it was my first time actually depressed. i stayed in bed half the day, then moped around the other half. sometimes even when talks turn out good, that doesnt mean you feel good afterwards.
i wonder if i am as nieve as some people think? when close friends are trying to pull things over my head or encourage things they know id be uncomfortable with, i wish theyd just be honest instead of sneaking around. maybe its too late now, the damage is done, ill get over it though, with time.
history repeats itself. ive found this to be true, this time maybe its repeated itself, but i think the outcome will be different this time. i have more faith and more trust. maybe this is what i needed to happen.
so i miss olivia. i havent seen her in forever and we really need to catch up on each others lives.
me ben and jessica are looking at apartments for next year. hopefully we can have something figured out in the next couple weeks.
ummm. for now im good. cant wait til rascal flatts this weekend. i need quality time with these guys.