* i love you's not enough.. i'm lost for words...*
where do i start?
how about... I'm an idiot.
what the fuck is wrong with me. I have something so great and i manage to risk it all by letting my emotions get the best of me. I don't know why it happens. When i'm in the moment i just.. don't know how to react to certain things, and because of that i usually end up acting in the worst way possible and saying the stupidest things in the world to jeopardize everything.. and it's not even worth it. Then after i really start thinking about it i realize how out of line i always am... "im sorry im sorry" but i always end up doing it again. Sometimes.. things just surprise me, or don't happen the way i want them to and i don't know how to take it. And it's not fair to frankie. I can't keep doing this to him because he deserves so much better and he never even does anything. It's the worst feeling in the world to have the one you love be upset with you. "sorry" will never fix any damage that i have caused, and i don't know what to do about it. I really need to think before i speak, and i need to cut it out with the insecurity issues. But how? I dont know!! IASHGOADIGhsdhksdfjhlpkdh
:( i jsut regret everyhting i ever did.. and im totally speechless and im just so fucking stupid. I know he loves me and would never do anything to hurt me, so why do i keep hurting him? uhhhh i can't even think..
:(
i love you
how about... I'm an idiot.
what the fuck is wrong with me. I have something so great and i manage to risk it all by letting my emotions get the best of me. I don't know why it happens. When i'm in the moment i just.. don't know how to react to certain things, and because of that i usually end up acting in the worst way possible and saying the stupidest things in the world to jeopardize everything.. and it's not even worth it. Then after i really start thinking about it i realize how out of line i always am... "im sorry im sorry" but i always end up doing it again. Sometimes.. things just surprise me, or don't happen the way i want them to and i don't know how to take it. And it's not fair to frankie. I can't keep doing this to him because he deserves so much better and he never even does anything. It's the worst feeling in the world to have the one you love be upset with you. "sorry" will never fix any damage that i have caused, and i don't know what to do about it. I really need to think before i speak, and i need to cut it out with the insecurity issues. But how? I dont know!! IASHGOADIGhsdhksdfjhlpkdh
:( i jsut regret everyhting i ever did.. and im totally speechless and im just so fucking stupid. I know he loves me and would never do anything to hurt me, so why do i keep hurting him? uhhhh i can't even think..
:(
i love you