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I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I wish I could fix everything, but all I ever seem to do is make it all worse. Everything I touch ends up messed up, everything I do turns out wrong.
Sometimes I wonder if I will feel this way forever... Intellectually I know that eventually the tears will cease, the hole in my heart will grow smaller and the scars will fade away. But emotionally it is difficult to imagine.
I would have given myself to you forever. I would have followed you and never looked back. Now I find myself stuck in a memory loop trying to find a shred of happiness that I can grasp. I present my face to the world, flawless. After 45 minutes of crying no one knew that anything was wrong, flawless, perfect. The mask keeps me safe, keeps me sane, all I have to do is keep my distance, i can't let anyone get too close, I can't let them see me.
Here in the shadows
I'm safe, I'm free
I've nowhere else to go
But I cannot stay where I don't belong...
Sometimes I wonder if I will feel this way forever... Intellectually I know that eventually the tears will cease, the hole in my heart will grow smaller and the scars will fade away. But emotionally it is difficult to imagine.
I would have given myself to you forever. I would have followed you and never looked back. Now I find myself stuck in a memory loop trying to find a shred of happiness that I can grasp. I present my face to the world, flawless. After 45 minutes of crying no one knew that anything was wrong, flawless, perfect. The mask keeps me safe, keeps me sane, all I have to do is keep my distance, i can't let anyone get too close, I can't let them see me.
Here in the shadows
I'm safe, I'm free
I've nowhere else to go
But I cannot stay where I don't belong...