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Ah, j'ai fatigue. I am exhausted for all you non french speaking people out there. I keep waking up in the middle of the night having allergy attax and its driving me CRAZY!!! I just wish I could sleep from 9:30 to 6:00 without waking up and sneezing my head off. My mom said I could stay home today but STUPID ME said "no I don't want to have to make work up" *sarcastic whiny tone when saying preceding line* so here I am, back in the prison, updating. It's a sad life I lead. . .
I talked to James for about an hour last night and he read some stuff he wrote in his journal about meeting this girl stacey and how she had a really great personality and they talked for a long time. then he said he could only think about me but it made him mad because I made him mad sometimes. After he read it he said it was really hard for him to read that to me and I said I was proud of him for having the guts to be honest with me and that I thought it was really good. I also told him I wasn't mad about Stacey or anything, I know there's other cool girls out there, i'm not the only one *wink wink* so then I told him he could ask me any question and I would answer it since he read that to me. so of course he asks, "tell me something you have been feeling lately that involves me that you normally wouldn't tell me." the worst question in the world right?
so after some himming and hawing i finally said (in one quick breath so I wouldn't lose my nerve) "the past couple of weeks with all the rumors going around about us i have been struggling with whether or not I want to break up with you" (long pause) "are you mad?" he told me that he actually has been thinking about that too recently, not because he wants to break up with me but because he realizes that I am the type of person who cares a lot about my reputation adn I dont want people saying bad stuff about me. so he says "let me read u something else from my journal from last week." and this is what he reads "erin has been acting really awkward lately and I feel bad. I really care about her but I am starting to think that I am pushing her too far in a relationship that she isn't ready for yet." Intuitive huh? I hadn't even said anything to him about it and he had already figured it out. Keeper right? yea i know, but theres just some chemical imbalance with me. if theres someone out there with answers PLEASE HELP ME!! I know i'm completely going back on my last update about complainging about love, but i'm just so confused. to all my friends, please write funny stories or jokes cause I need a little help smilin right now luv ya all
I talked to James for about an hour last night and he read some stuff he wrote in his journal about meeting this girl stacey and how she had a really great personality and they talked for a long time. then he said he could only think about me but it made him mad because I made him mad sometimes. After he read it he said it was really hard for him to read that to me and I said I was proud of him for having the guts to be honest with me and that I thought it was really good. I also told him I wasn't mad about Stacey or anything, I know there's other cool girls out there, i'm not the only one *wink wink* so then I told him he could ask me any question and I would answer it since he read that to me. so of course he asks, "tell me something you have been feeling lately that involves me that you normally wouldn't tell me." the worst question in the world right?
so after some himming and hawing i finally said (in one quick breath so I wouldn't lose my nerve) "the past couple of weeks with all the rumors going around about us i have been struggling with whether or not I want to break up with you" (long pause) "are you mad?" he told me that he actually has been thinking about that too recently, not because he wants to break up with me but because he realizes that I am the type of person who cares a lot about my reputation adn I dont want people saying bad stuff about me. so he says "let me read u something else from my journal from last week." and this is what he reads "erin has been acting really awkward lately and I feel bad. I really care about her but I am starting to think that I am pushing her too far in a relationship that she isn't ready for yet." Intuitive huh? I hadn't even said anything to him about it and he had already figured it out. Keeper right? yea i know, but theres just some chemical imbalance with me. if theres someone out there with answers PLEASE HELP ME!! I know i'm completely going back on my last update about complainging about love, but i'm just so confused. to all my friends, please write funny stories or jokes cause I need a little help smilin right now luv ya all