Joe Schmo is my daddy.
I miss my boyfriend. Its been like 2 days. What the hell? What's gonna happen during the summer. This is the longest relationship I've ever had. And its the only relationship I've had in 6 1/2 years. Jesus Christ.
I'm sick. I've been sick all week. I woke up this morning and I wasn't better. I got worse. I hate this. I hate sickness.
I hate Valentine's Day. Why can't guys be romantic everyday. Instead of once a year because they feel obligated thanks to fucking Hallmark. (I know thats not the reason we have the holiday, but they fucking marketed it those capitalist bitches.) I'm tired of seeing all these happy couples because its Valentine's Day and I don't get to see my boyfriend. I hate it. But, I'll take cuddling with Nikki over a stupid holiday anyday.
I have a picture frame on my desk that has been empty since I got it. I want to put a picture of me and Michael in it. However, we don't fucking have any pics together. I always get pics with everyone but him. Bummer.
It seems as if everyone around me is getting married or having children. What the shit? I mean seriously. I'm 19. I mean that stuff is ok. But, are you sure you're ready? I mean c'mon people. If you can barely take care of yourself how can you expect to take care of a little person? Maybe I'm over-exaggerating. But, I can't imagine how ruined my life would get if I had a child, or got married. I'm still in college. I need to graduate. I want to go to grad school. I don't want to drop everything for a little one. For all you married/preggers people, I'm not talking about you. I'm talking about my friends in my personal life that I talk to like everyday. And I know them personally and stuff. And they are my age and stuff.
Anyways.
P.S. Someone gave me great advice today. I thought I'd share it with you all:
Once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived; happiness, sadness, knowledge, and all the others, including love. One day it was announced to all of the feelings that the island was going to sink to the bottom of the ocean. So all the feelings prepared their boats to leave. Love was the only one that stayed. She wanted to preserve the island paradise until the last possible moment. When the island was almost totally under, Love decided it was time to leave. She began looking for someone to ask for help. Just then Richness was passing by in a grand boat. Love asked, "Richness, Can I come with you on your boat?" Richness answered, " I'm sorry, but there is a lot of silver and gold on my boat and there would be no room for you anywhere." Then Love decided to ask Vanity for help who was passing in a beautiful vessel. Love cried out, "Vanity, help me please." "I can't help you", Vanity said, "You are all wet and will damage my beautiful boat." Next, Love saw Sadness passing by. Love said, "Sadness, please let me go with you." Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry, but, I just need to be alone now." Then, Love saw Happiness. Love cried out, " Happiness, please take me with you." But Happiness was so overjoyed that he didn't hear Love calling to him. Love began to cry. Then, she heard a voice say, "Come Love, I will take you with me." It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his name. When they arrived on land the elder went on his way. Love realized how much she owed the elder. Love then found Knowledge and asked, "Who was it that helped me?" "It was Time", Knowledge answered. "But why did Time help me when no one else would?", Love asked. Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and sincerity, answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."
I'm sick. I've been sick all week. I woke up this morning and I wasn't better. I got worse. I hate this. I hate sickness.
I hate Valentine's Day. Why can't guys be romantic everyday. Instead of once a year because they feel obligated thanks to fucking Hallmark. (I know thats not the reason we have the holiday, but they fucking marketed it those capitalist bitches.) I'm tired of seeing all these happy couples because its Valentine's Day and I don't get to see my boyfriend. I hate it. But, I'll take cuddling with Nikki over a stupid holiday anyday.
I have a picture frame on my desk that has been empty since I got it. I want to put a picture of me and Michael in it. However, we don't fucking have any pics together. I always get pics with everyone but him. Bummer.
It seems as if everyone around me is getting married or having children. What the shit? I mean seriously. I'm 19. I mean that stuff is ok. But, are you sure you're ready? I mean c'mon people. If you can barely take care of yourself how can you expect to take care of a little person? Maybe I'm over-exaggerating. But, I can't imagine how ruined my life would get if I had a child, or got married. I'm still in college. I need to graduate. I want to go to grad school. I don't want to drop everything for a little one. For all you married/preggers people, I'm not talking about you. I'm talking about my friends in my personal life that I talk to like everyday. And I know them personally and stuff. And they are my age and stuff.
Anyways.
P.S. Someone gave me great advice today. I thought I'd share it with you all:
Once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived; happiness, sadness, knowledge, and all the others, including love. One day it was announced to all of the feelings that the island was going to sink to the bottom of the ocean. So all the feelings prepared their boats to leave. Love was the only one that stayed. She wanted to preserve the island paradise until the last possible moment. When the island was almost totally under, Love decided it was time to leave. She began looking for someone to ask for help. Just then Richness was passing by in a grand boat. Love asked, "Richness, Can I come with you on your boat?" Richness answered, " I'm sorry, but there is a lot of silver and gold on my boat and there would be no room for you anywhere." Then Love decided to ask Vanity for help who was passing in a beautiful vessel. Love cried out, "Vanity, help me please." "I can't help you", Vanity said, "You are all wet and will damage my beautiful boat." Next, Love saw Sadness passing by. Love said, "Sadness, please let me go with you." Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry, but, I just need to be alone now." Then, Love saw Happiness. Love cried out, " Happiness, please take me with you." But Happiness was so overjoyed that he didn't hear Love calling to him. Love began to cry. Then, she heard a voice say, "Come Love, I will take you with me." It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his name. When they arrived on land the elder went on his way. Love realized how much she owed the elder. Love then found Knowledge and asked, "Who was it that helped me?" "It was Time", Knowledge answered. "But why did Time help me when no one else would?", Love asked. Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and sincerity, answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."