i swear this is the last time, i swear it......possibly.
This weekend was unusual, like them all. I need to be that kid that never does anything besides sitting around and studying. and phone calls and little things like movies and the mall on occassion. Well thanx to this weekend, the next week or so will be consisted of sitting around in boredom, on the phone & online, no trips anywhere, and tons of cleaning.
err. :)
Here's the jist of it. I don't feel like describing everything. Went out w/ GENANIKKIBRIDGETTLEANNACHARLIEJOSHREGGIEMIKEY and then after all sorts of issues, went to the pool hall to see ginger & others, then to nikstahs to grab her shit, then BS & his friend picked me nikstah & gena up. Then we went to joe kid's house, then on runs, then back to joe's. then the usual blah blah and teenage ideals of fun. Then I woke up at 5ish and the fun had worn away and i was spazzing out because i was supposed to be home at the latest of 2ish. But BS didn't care and gave me total BS and what not. three hours later he took us home. We walked in a little before 8:30. err. Who knows how long I'm grounded. I don't much care I suppose. I got 3 hours of sleep saturday night, & still couldnt sleep until 2 or so last night. Then i just woke up about an hour ago.
On top of all this, the aunt is about to die. She's off of life-support and no-one knows how long she will hang on. I wasn't that close to her, because she lives in Tennessee but still. There's select memories. and it tears me up. Death scares me. And it all reminds me of my papa. Which was over 4 years ago. I guess I'll never get over him. He was everything to me and funerals just all go back to him sitting in the hospital, just being able to breathe and nothing else. And me kissing him goodbye and running away like a coward. Because I couldn't sit there and have the guts to watch my own grandfather died. errr. and with those horridly saddening thoughts,
I have to go clean because I'm superb.
I love a few of you guys.