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oh p.s.
here's a list of goals i set at the beginning of march then immediately forgot about.
* stop skipping class
i didn't. in fact, i started skipping classes more.
* start taking care of my voice, using saltwater, warming up before a show so i don't keep fucking it up more and more
i never think to warm up, but i have been using throat coat tea about twice a week. even though its recommended use is twice a day, i think that counts as progress. also i smoke a lot less and can feel the difference in my voice.
* start eating more than one meal a day
i eat two meals a day now! one in the afternoon and one late at night and then when it's really late at night i get the munchies and either snack on chips and cookies and ice cream or i make waffles. bad bad bad. today i was up early so i had eggs. good.
* start getting physical activity so my body doesn't turn stiff then deteriorate
i've been going to the gym once a week for the past 4 weeks. humans are supposed to exercise for at least 30 minutes three times a week. i am unhealthy but not as unhealthy as usual. i can feel the difference in my hands. my hands work now. a month ago i couldn't open jars. i'm 22.
* start turning in my homework on time
ugh. no i can't.
* start saving money
well, not yet. i've only worked 2 shifts so far (excluding training) and have been unemployed for almost two months, so...
* while chipping away at my credit card debt
it is so ugly. but i've made all of my payments on time.
* find a trustworthy therapist
i spent a week looking then gave up. anybody have any referrals for austin?
* start spending more time with my friends
i got to do this while luke was out of town.
* get back into going to shows so when i want people to come to my shows or to play shows with me they will
i saw my bloody valentine the other night but that doesnt count. i will have the time to see shows once school is out
* stop complaining about things i will not change
i've stopped
* stop scanning for minute reasons to pick fights
i've stopped
* go to the fucking dentist for the first time in 4 or 5 years
guilty
* learn to play the harmonica
i've been picking it up, and picking up the guitar more too. i made fast progress on the xylophone. i might be ready to play harmonica at shows by late june.
* read another novel
i read pulp, by bukowski. i read the second half of house of leaves, and now i'm halfway through survivor.
* get back into writing poems
in the past month i wrote one poem and revised it. i wrote one song from scratch (meaning by myself, without andrew's riffs) i wrote a shitty short story and i am scrambling to finish my screenplay by may 7th... that's the last day i can turn it in. it is for a class.
* get back into thinking
i thiiiiiiink i have been avoiding it less.
considering that i never looked at this list but subconsciously knew to fix some of my shit anyway, i think i am doing a lot better now.
here's a list of goals i set at the beginning of march then immediately forgot about.
* stop skipping class
i didn't. in fact, i started skipping classes more.
* start taking care of my voice, using saltwater, warming up before a show so i don't keep fucking it up more and more
i never think to warm up, but i have been using throat coat tea about twice a week. even though its recommended use is twice a day, i think that counts as progress. also i smoke a lot less and can feel the difference in my voice.
* start eating more than one meal a day
i eat two meals a day now! one in the afternoon and one late at night and then when it's really late at night i get the munchies and either snack on chips and cookies and ice cream or i make waffles. bad bad bad. today i was up early so i had eggs. good.
* start getting physical activity so my body doesn't turn stiff then deteriorate
i've been going to the gym once a week for the past 4 weeks. humans are supposed to exercise for at least 30 minutes three times a week. i am unhealthy but not as unhealthy as usual. i can feel the difference in my hands. my hands work now. a month ago i couldn't open jars. i'm 22.
* start turning in my homework on time
ugh. no i can't.
* start saving money
well, not yet. i've only worked 2 shifts so far (excluding training) and have been unemployed for almost two months, so...
* while chipping away at my credit card debt
it is so ugly. but i've made all of my payments on time.
* find a trustworthy therapist
i spent a week looking then gave up. anybody have any referrals for austin?
* start spending more time with my friends
i got to do this while luke was out of town.
* get back into going to shows so when i want people to come to my shows or to play shows with me they will
i saw my bloody valentine the other night but that doesnt count. i will have the time to see shows once school is out
* stop complaining about things i will not change
i've stopped
* stop scanning for minute reasons to pick fights
i've stopped
* go to the fucking dentist for the first time in 4 or 5 years
guilty
* learn to play the harmonica
i've been picking it up, and picking up the guitar more too. i made fast progress on the xylophone. i might be ready to play harmonica at shows by late june.
* read another novel
i read pulp, by bukowski. i read the second half of house of leaves, and now i'm halfway through survivor.
* get back into writing poems
in the past month i wrote one poem and revised it. i wrote one song from scratch (meaning by myself, without andrew's riffs) i wrote a shitty short story and i am scrambling to finish my screenplay by may 7th... that's the last day i can turn it in. it is for a class.
* get back into thinking
i thiiiiiiink i have been avoiding it less.
considering that i never looked at this list but subconsciously knew to fix some of my shit anyway, i think i am doing a lot better now.