Hello, world.
I haven't written here in a long time, but I am doing well, and growing in peacefulness and happiness.
I've been trying to walk into the next stage of whoever I am supposed to become with grace and openness, and there have been some long periods of fear, stress, and anxiety as I've sensed coming changes and seen how the people and events in my own life are constantly changing.
And of course, I've been nervous about who I myself am becoming.
I guess I've been struggling with the first noble truth of Buddhism: impermanence. All things, however we see them (as good, bad, or neutral), evolve and change as time goes on. Nothing stays stable or the same over time. This is healthy, necessary, and it's the basic condition of human life.
But I have really been struggling with it.
In the last month or so I've reached a place of more peace. I'm grateful for it. After so much internal tumult, it feels really good to take a restful breath or three from a place of acceptance.
My outer life is quite good, and during all this internal tumult, nothing much outside of me was going wrong. It was all just changing around me. I was surrounded by kindness and love then, and I'm surrounded by kindness and love now. My dear ones are healthy and evolving exactly as they should. My work flows from intense to calm and back again. I feel the sense that soon, things are going to expand here a lot.
And it's all OK.
Tonight I head to Honduras for a diving vacation with Michael, Gwen (formerly Trent), and a few good friends. I'm delighted at this opportunity to see the ocean in some of its great beauty and encounter those creature who choose to show themselves to me.
It's been years since I've been scuba diving and I am excited to begin again.
All the weight I've lost has made it easier to get into my wetsuit, and most of my favorite clothes fit again, so packing has been easy and fun.
And today someone from my past reached out and sent me a thank you note for something I did years ago that I had long forgotten. I felt so warm and happy reading that note...I'm glad that something I did turned into a very good thing.
Thank you, kind person, for reaching out to me with your warm words.
May all who read this feel peace, and enjoy the goodness that this world can bring.
B*B.
I've been trying to walk into the next stage of whoever I am supposed to become with grace and openness, and there have been some long periods of fear, stress, and anxiety as I've sensed coming changes and seen how the people and events in my own life are constantly changing.
And of course, I've been nervous about who I myself am becoming.
I guess I've been struggling with the first noble truth of Buddhism: impermanence. All things, however we see them (as good, bad, or neutral), evolve and change as time goes on. Nothing stays stable or the same over time. This is healthy, necessary, and it's the basic condition of human life.
But I have really been struggling with it.
In the last month or so I've reached a place of more peace. I'm grateful for it. After so much internal tumult, it feels really good to take a restful breath or three from a place of acceptance.
My outer life is quite good, and during all this internal tumult, nothing much outside of me was going wrong. It was all just changing around me. I was surrounded by kindness and love then, and I'm surrounded by kindness and love now. My dear ones are healthy and evolving exactly as they should. My work flows from intense to calm and back again. I feel the sense that soon, things are going to expand here a lot.
And it's all OK.
Tonight I head to Honduras for a diving vacation with Michael, Gwen (formerly Trent), and a few good friends. I'm delighted at this opportunity to see the ocean in some of its great beauty and encounter those creature who choose to show themselves to me.
It's been years since I've been scuba diving and I am excited to begin again.
All the weight I've lost has made it easier to get into my wetsuit, and most of my favorite clothes fit again, so packing has been easy and fun.
And today someone from my past reached out and sent me a thank you note for something I did years ago that I had long forgotten. I felt so warm and happy reading that note...I'm glad that something I did turned into a very good thing.
Thank you, kind person, for reaching out to me with your warm words.
May all who read this feel peace, and enjoy the goodness that this world can bring.
B*B.