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Why is it nobody understands that i may look fine on the outside but on the inside im a fucking mess. Just so many thoughts running through my head. none of which are will cause me to inflict pain on my self or others i love or care about . Just trying to find a place to vent so i can clear my head and be able to focus and be able to finish something i start. Which would be great. Im tired of fighting what seems like a losing battle. Even though there are ways to fix it.
I havent done a life recap for a while. And i dont really feel like putting all that into words now either, just want a safe place to write where i will not be judged or told i should seek help. I dont want to be medicated to the point of being a zombie! I just want things to be simpler im tired of fighting all the damn time for things that i had and let go of or lost due to other obstacles i had thrown into my path.