an update
I knew, coming out of September with its billion holidays, that October was going to be the hardest month in a while, and hopefully ever, at my new job, but oh boy. We're not even halfway done and oooooh boy.
There are a few things making this month complicated:
1. This is the last month when I'm trying to come into the office every day instead of working from home occasionally. This is just making everything... harder and more exhausting. My commute isn't that bad, especially for working in the equivalent of the middle of Manhattan, but it's still about an hour out of my day that I have to spend on getting to and from work.
The way I try to circumvent this "waste" is by scheduling my commute during meetings when I'm not required to be super active, but rather an observer for now, as part of my training, but that just adds 200% more stress to my day, even if it saves me time.
Like I can't tell you how many times at this point I've spent my driving time listening to work meetings while also dealing with rush hour traffic. In addition to an overall stressful workday, it's just... a lot.
2. I'm still in a transitional period where I have my own projects but I'm still getting having my plate filled slowly with more and more things, so everything is a learning process, everything is time and effort and depending on other people and having less control of my own schedule.
It's not as bad as August, when I was completely dependent and it drove me up the wall, but it's still a transitional period that's not the "easy" flow of just working on your own shit full time.
3. This month I'm working on a project that's like... it's terrible in every way. I mean it's great! It's my own thing, it means a lot to the company, it's teaching me tons, it's wonderful.
But it's also being done as a rush job (I inherited it after it was not worked on for like 7 months straight and so is now behind every schedule imaginable and deadlines had to be moved by 3 months if we want to have even a hope of getting it done).
On the one hand - it's great to be on a project that's getting top notch company resources. Suddenly I have my own team across several departments, my shit takes priority over pretty much everything else in everyone's schedule, etc.
But on the other hand it means this is being worked on with no scheduling, no planning, no reasonable timetables. Everything has to get done NOW, instead of having to give status updates about things a few times a week at most I have to give status update 5-6 times A DAY. Everything is urgent all the time, and my boss isn't even anyone from my department. The project has its own special boss who's not part of normal operations. Basically, it's a logistical nightmare that means I have to be on top of things 24/7.
So, all three of these things combined mean... a hectic month, to say the least.
I keep being like - there must be a way to carve out some piece of sanity out of this even in the midst of this chaos, but honestly I might just have to wait for October to end.
*deep breath* November will be better. I'll start working from home occasionally, the project will hopefully become less intense, and I'll be even more on top of things and less of a newby than I am now. *deep breath*
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There are a few things making this month complicated:
1. This is the last month when I'm trying to come into the office every day instead of working from home occasionally. This is just making everything... harder and more exhausting. My commute isn't that bad, especially for working in the equivalent of the middle of Manhattan, but it's still about an hour out of my day that I have to spend on getting to and from work.
The way I try to circumvent this "waste" is by scheduling my commute during meetings when I'm not required to be super active, but rather an observer for now, as part of my training, but that just adds 200% more stress to my day, even if it saves me time.
Like I can't tell you how many times at this point I've spent my driving time listening to work meetings while also dealing with rush hour traffic. In addition to an overall stressful workday, it's just... a lot.
2. I'm still in a transitional period where I have my own projects but I'm still getting having my plate filled slowly with more and more things, so everything is a learning process, everything is time and effort and depending on other people and having less control of my own schedule.
It's not as bad as August, when I was completely dependent and it drove me up the wall, but it's still a transitional period that's not the "easy" flow of just working on your own shit full time.
3. This month I'm working on a project that's like... it's terrible in every way. I mean it's great! It's my own thing, it means a lot to the company, it's teaching me tons, it's wonderful.
But it's also being done as a rush job (I inherited it after it was not worked on for like 7 months straight and so is now behind every schedule imaginable and deadlines had to be moved by 3 months if we want to have even a hope of getting it done).
On the one hand - it's great to be on a project that's getting top notch company resources. Suddenly I have my own team across several departments, my shit takes priority over pretty much everything else in everyone's schedule, etc.
But on the other hand it means this is being worked on with no scheduling, no planning, no reasonable timetables. Everything has to get done NOW, instead of having to give status updates about things a few times a week at most I have to give status update 5-6 times A DAY. Everything is urgent all the time, and my boss isn't even anyone from my department. The project has its own special boss who's not part of normal operations. Basically, it's a logistical nightmare that means I have to be on top of things 24/7.
So, all three of these things combined mean... a hectic month, to say the least.
I keep being like - there must be a way to carve out some piece of sanity out of this even in the midst of this chaos, but honestly I might just have to wait for October to end.
*deep breath* November will be better. I'll start working from home occasionally, the project will hopefully become less intense, and I'll be even more on top of things and less of a newby than I am now. *deep breath*
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