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so
i really should be working on the two papers i have to write today, but
i really just dont feel like it right now... plus the chief and chief
junior are vacumming everything in site because they got some new
vacuum last night that tells you where the floor is dirty and so they
just keep vaccumming until the light goes green which so far has
taken them... ehhh about 45 mins... so i have decided to distract
myself with my LJ for a bit. i figured i would update since i
have been harrassed by sum friends to do it. i can't believe how
long ago it was the last time i wrote in here. its just when im
at work and i could update it, i just either dont really feel like it
or i feel guilty because i know that i have hw i should be doing.
weird i know. i do like writing in here though because i like to
look back at old entries and see what i was doing and feeling at the
time and see where i am now compared to where i was then. i was
cleanin yesterday and i was thinking about something that often plagues
my thoughs, the trouble ive been having with my parents and making them
realize that they need to let me grow up. i came to the
conclusion that part of the problem was who i chose to become friends
with last year. heather and i were very close, and i am not
saying that that was a bad thing, but she was a very introverted person
who was completely content with either staying at her dorm or spending
the weekend over at my house... in other words we really didnt go out
at all and i didnt really see the other side of college life.
sure even though she went line dancing once and then never came again
and i still kept goin, i still feel like i missed out on that
year. but i wouldnt trade last year for anything. even
though her and i really dont talk to much anymore, she was a good
friend and i have a lot of good memories with her. but now that i
have different friends who dont have to worry about their parents like
i have to with mine, it makes things stressfull and annoying very
easily. just stupid things with them now really get to me.
i just dont understand some of their double standards. i try to
follow all of their stupid rules that i dont agree with in order to
gain some freedoms which i feel i should already have anyways, and
instead of getting them, they take it as i am okay with everything and
there is no change. my sister is a whole other story. she
knows exactly how to annoy me and she does a really good job at
it. im just trying my hardest to not let her get to me, which is
sooo hard because she is so good at it! but yeah to sum up my
family life right now... its annoying and extremely frustrating
work at ubpd is good, and bad at times. there is so much office drama all the time. idk if it is from goin to villa that it really doesn't phase me but it all seems normal to me. u know the usual gossip. i dont know what i would do without my mama. i still think it is funny with how different we are that we are such good friends. i really do look at her as the older sister that i never had. i know i can talk to her about anything and she will always be there for me. i have learned so much from her. mcgrath still harasses me everyday... reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeannon! how about a little line dancing?!?! the best was when bixby just looked at me and said "how do you do it everyday?" hahaha i guess u just get used to him after a while. the only problem is that i have become so good at blocking what he says out that i basically block out that whole half of the room. so if he actually does need something i dont hear it. tpray doesnt work the desk on afternoons nemore. he works days on patrol. i miss havin him there in the afternoon... good times. but at least now i can get mighty when he remembers... i think he owes me 3 mightys.
of course i am still goin line dancing every thursday. it is so much fun because a bunch of my friends go now. the three of us that are always there are me, jordan, and mark. then my medaille friends come a lot too. stef, sarah (well she goes to canisius lol), nicki, shan, leigh, isy, derrick, danielle, jen kubala, crystal... i luv thursday nights. i would have never thought senior year that in college my weekly "club" activity would be line dancing lol it amazes me how country caught on like wildfire. the only reason i started to listen to it was because shannon was askin me to make cds for her to play on AMvilla (ooo am villa... sumtimes i do miss villa) and she always had rascal flatts or other country on there, so i started to make copies for myself and then all of a sudden WYRK was programed into frankie and i was an official country fan.
jordan and i started goin out hey look at that two months ago today. i feel so lucky to have him in my life. i dont know what i would do without him. he knows just how to make me smile and laugh. i like him sooo much. i think its funny how still if my phone rings and its his ringtone, or the little noise my phone makes when he sends me a txt, little things like that... i still get butterflies. he is such an amzing person. i guess i could never put into words how much i care or how thankful i am to have him in my life because my feelings are so strong. i luv spending time with him. even if it is taking care of him after he ate year old mayo. yes that is right. jordan made himself a tuna sandwich using year old mayo. he got very very sick. moral of the story... check the experation date on mayo b4 u use it lol. i have so many good memories with jordan. some of my favorite are the night we went on the hill and looked at the stars, when i went on my scavenger hunt, darien lake,getting our picture taken as the cowboy and saloon girl, line dancing, driving and singing in our cars, erie county fair, keith concert, comin over to his house and having him stuffed in the closet for an hr to surpise me with flowers and keith, all the little things he does like wakin me up with hot coco, driving me home, makin me call when i get home to make sure im home safe, too many to list. its just so nice knowing that i have someone there for me when i need them and its also nice knowing that i am there for them whenever they need me. i am so thankful that i have him in my life.
i was talkin about it with sarah and stef the other day when we were shopping and it really does amazes me that we stayed in touch as well as we did. i mean out of villa people, i talk to them the most. but i also talk to leigh, shan, nicki, isy, therese, ashley.... i never thought i would still be talking to anyone really. i remember going into senior year putting all fights behind me on the thought that i wanted to make my last year at villa the best it possibly could be figuring that graduation would probably really be the last time i saw many of my friends. this stayed true with some of my friends. honestly i wish racheal and i had fixed our friendship... i have so many good memories with her. all our random sleepovers, prom junior year, goin to that roller hockey rink to watch the boys play and almost passin out from the smell... but anyways i am so happy that i did stay in touch with as many of my friends as i have. i never would have expected that.
school is good. i dunno. at one point i was seriously thinking of taking a year off or a semester off just because it felt so pointless to me to be there since i felt lost with not knowing what i wanted to do. but i am thinking about sociology now. dont know exactly what i would do with it but maybe go on to get my masters in childhood education? im tryin to get into a few soc classes next smester just to make sure it is something i am serious about. haha im takin the cyberporn class next semester. that should be interesting. i like the fact that it is online because that makes my schedule more open which means better work hrs.
i went to the rascal flatts concert last month. i went with jordan, kaylin, danielle, becca, beth, and 2 dansville people. we had amazing seats. thats right, i only sit on the floor now. and of course i waved to amy, and then pointed and laughed at derrick because he had sucky seats compared to ours. muhahaha... i couldnt help it keith floor seats and then rascal flatts floor seats. it was amazing. ive seen my 2 most fave country artists now. if brad paisley ever came to buffalo, i would have to get tickets to see him. i really like him. or like if big and rich came back i think i would like to see them.
i think thats it for now... figuring i have been writing for about an hour and i need to take a shower and write my papers and i still want to try out this new vacuumm in my room (i think i have spelled vacuum a diff way everytime i have typed it in this entry lol). im goin to see harry potter and the goblet of fire tonight with jordan!!!!!! i cant wait!!! everyone keeps tellin me how good it was. i luv harry potter, that is one thing that hasnt changed lol. thoes books/movies are such a good way to just escape and get away from reality and to really use ur imagination. i love the fact that the movies are so close to the books. the characters are exactly how i pictured them in my head when i was reading the books. so yeah better get on thoes papers so i can go... l8r gators
work at ubpd is good, and bad at times. there is so much office drama all the time. idk if it is from goin to villa that it really doesn't phase me but it all seems normal to me. u know the usual gossip. i dont know what i would do without my mama. i still think it is funny with how different we are that we are such good friends. i really do look at her as the older sister that i never had. i know i can talk to her about anything and she will always be there for me. i have learned so much from her. mcgrath still harasses me everyday... reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeannon! how about a little line dancing?!?! the best was when bixby just looked at me and said "how do you do it everyday?" hahaha i guess u just get used to him after a while. the only problem is that i have become so good at blocking what he says out that i basically block out that whole half of the room. so if he actually does need something i dont hear it. tpray doesnt work the desk on afternoons nemore. he works days on patrol. i miss havin him there in the afternoon... good times. but at least now i can get mighty when he remembers... i think he owes me 3 mightys.
of course i am still goin line dancing every thursday. it is so much fun because a bunch of my friends go now. the three of us that are always there are me, jordan, and mark. then my medaille friends come a lot too. stef, sarah (well she goes to canisius lol), nicki, shan, leigh, isy, derrick, danielle, jen kubala, crystal... i luv thursday nights. i would have never thought senior year that in college my weekly "club" activity would be line dancing lol it amazes me how country caught on like wildfire. the only reason i started to listen to it was because shannon was askin me to make cds for her to play on AMvilla (ooo am villa... sumtimes i do miss villa) and she always had rascal flatts or other country on there, so i started to make copies for myself and then all of a sudden WYRK was programed into frankie and i was an official country fan.
jordan and i started goin out hey look at that two months ago today. i feel so lucky to have him in my life. i dont know what i would do without him. he knows just how to make me smile and laugh. i like him sooo much. i think its funny how still if my phone rings and its his ringtone, or the little noise my phone makes when he sends me a txt, little things like that... i still get butterflies. he is such an amzing person. i guess i could never put into words how much i care or how thankful i am to have him in my life because my feelings are so strong. i luv spending time with him. even if it is taking care of him after he ate year old mayo. yes that is right. jordan made himself a tuna sandwich using year old mayo. he got very very sick. moral of the story... check the experation date on mayo b4 u use it lol. i have so many good memories with jordan. some of my favorite are the night we went on the hill and looked at the stars, when i went on my scavenger hunt, darien lake,getting our picture taken as the cowboy and saloon girl, line dancing, driving and singing in our cars, erie county fair, keith concert, comin over to his house and having him stuffed in the closet for an hr to surpise me with flowers and keith, all the little things he does like wakin me up with hot coco, driving me home, makin me call when i get home to make sure im home safe, too many to list. its just so nice knowing that i have someone there for me when i need them and its also nice knowing that i am there for them whenever they need me. i am so thankful that i have him in my life.
i was talkin about it with sarah and stef the other day when we were shopping and it really does amazes me that we stayed in touch as well as we did. i mean out of villa people, i talk to them the most. but i also talk to leigh, shan, nicki, isy, therese, ashley.... i never thought i would still be talking to anyone really. i remember going into senior year putting all fights behind me on the thought that i wanted to make my last year at villa the best it possibly could be figuring that graduation would probably really be the last time i saw many of my friends. this stayed true with some of my friends. honestly i wish racheal and i had fixed our friendship... i have so many good memories with her. all our random sleepovers, prom junior year, goin to that roller hockey rink to watch the boys play and almost passin out from the smell... but anyways i am so happy that i did stay in touch with as many of my friends as i have. i never would have expected that.
school is good. i dunno. at one point i was seriously thinking of taking a year off or a semester off just because it felt so pointless to me to be there since i felt lost with not knowing what i wanted to do. but i am thinking about sociology now. dont know exactly what i would do with it but maybe go on to get my masters in childhood education? im tryin to get into a few soc classes next smester just to make sure it is something i am serious about. haha im takin the cyberporn class next semester. that should be interesting. i like the fact that it is online because that makes my schedule more open which means better work hrs.
i went to the rascal flatts concert last month. i went with jordan, kaylin, danielle, becca, beth, and 2 dansville people. we had amazing seats. thats right, i only sit on the floor now. and of course i waved to amy, and then pointed and laughed at derrick because he had sucky seats compared to ours. muhahaha... i couldnt help it keith floor seats and then rascal flatts floor seats. it was amazing. ive seen my 2 most fave country artists now. if brad paisley ever came to buffalo, i would have to get tickets to see him. i really like him. or like if big and rich came back i think i would like to see them.
i think thats it for now... figuring i have been writing for about an hour and i need to take a shower and write my papers and i still want to try out this new vacuumm in my room (i think i have spelled vacuum a diff way everytime i have typed it in this entry lol). im goin to see harry potter and the goblet of fire tonight with jordan!!!!!! i cant wait!!! everyone keeps tellin me how good it was. i luv harry potter, that is one thing that hasnt changed lol. thoes books/movies are such a good way to just escape and get away from reality and to really use ur imagination. i love the fact that the movies are so close to the books. the characters are exactly how i pictured them in my head when i was reading the books. so yeah better get on thoes papers so i can go... l8r gators