a typical state of being
Confusion is such a typical state of existance. Im tired of the typical....I want to be able to just understand situations and know what to do. I wish she would tell me what it is that she want. It is looking like time is moving in a circle. I was so happy the night u told me how you felt for me. You told me u liked me...I want to be happy with this....but I know I cant....you broke my heart once before.
It seemed only days ago that what you said was true....but I can tell its fading. I know ur with him still, and your happy....I want you to be happy, but the small selfish part in me wants to be happy to. I was mad at what my parents did...but waking up I wasnt angry anymore. Yes I did like him to a degree but not really. I was lying to my self....idk maby Ill try to make things work....but is it really worth it?? Living a lie? Hes not the one that haunts my dreams. I deserve better than that. I deserve someone who is smart and who appreciates me for who I am.
What was it that made you tell me? To pry off the newly formed scab? Was it that I was now taken? Or is it because you actually like me? I want it to be something that was real....What hurts me is I would give the world to you....and im not quite sure you care. I need to know what it is you want to me do. I know what I want to say....I want to tell u to be with me...I want to tell you to leave him, so he cant ever cause you any type of emotional pain, but know that would be quite unfair of me to ask. I want to say give me a sign, telling me what to do. but in your own way did you...is this gradual backing away your response?
Let me know....am I allways going to just be a friend?.....or in time will I be something more? Either way I will always be ur friend and here for you. But please dont let history repeat it self. My heart broke once before...please dont give me false hope. If you truly like me....tell me what is it you want of me. If you want me im yours for the taking....but dont leave me wondering, wishing, and hoping for something that is not ment to be.
It seemed only days ago that what you said was true....but I can tell its fading. I know ur with him still, and your happy....I want you to be happy, but the small selfish part in me wants to be happy to. I was mad at what my parents did...but waking up I wasnt angry anymore. Yes I did like him to a degree but not really. I was lying to my self....idk maby Ill try to make things work....but is it really worth it?? Living a lie? Hes not the one that haunts my dreams. I deserve better than that. I deserve someone who is smart and who appreciates me for who I am.
What was it that made you tell me? To pry off the newly formed scab? Was it that I was now taken? Or is it because you actually like me? I want it to be something that was real....What hurts me is I would give the world to you....and im not quite sure you care. I need to know what it is you want to me do. I know what I want to say....I want to tell u to be with me...I want to tell you to leave him, so he cant ever cause you any type of emotional pain, but know that would be quite unfair of me to ask. I want to say give me a sign, telling me what to do. but in your own way did you...is this gradual backing away your response?
Let me know....am I allways going to just be a friend?.....or in time will I be something more? Either way I will always be ur friend and here for you. But please dont let history repeat it self. My heart broke once before...please dont give me false hope. If you truly like me....tell me what is it you want of me. If you want me im yours for the taking....but dont leave me wondering, wishing, and hoping for something that is not ment to be.