Wow!

[sabre_hawke]

I am a different person than I was even a month ago. I feel GREAT! I have energy (thanks to the iron pills and amgen injections), I have not gained too much weight with regaining control (mostly) of my bloodsugars (still working on that), am seeing a psychiatrist again and adjusting meds so I'm not crippled by depression or insomnia, and working

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Amazed--and (very) early morning noises....

[nman_in_black]

That is so very good to hear from you! I am not amazed--I'm just plain grateful. Very grateful.

Early morning noises--for me it might as well still be yesterday. I rested well, but I don't think I ever slept all night. This happens when I have enough pain in the evening to take two 5mg Oxycodone, even if four or more hours apart. Seems to interact with my SSRI antidepressant, but two Tylenol 8-hour (generic of course)just begins to scratch what I itch. I'm not complaining--I'm grateful for the O pills! They cut through, even though the side effect makes for wonderful music.

The music--my very old original ear pads for my headphones, which I use both with my Walkman and the boom-box CD player, wore so thin that they wouldn't stay on. Wal-Mart doesn't carry the three-pair pack they used to stock any more. Not enough sales, I think. So I looked, and kept on looking.

Yesterday Dorothy and I went up to Bilmore Square Mall, walked around a bit, and I stopped in at Radio Shack. Amazing! They had a one-pair pack of the pads--at a third the price of brand new headphones. I bought them anyway, happy as a little kid opening Christmas presents to have found some at ANY price (at least a price less than new phones, as mine are quite good--a top of the line Sony from my Wal-Mart days in the early '90-s.

So the music improved along with the comfort. I tried Brahms last night and it was too interesting, kept me awake, so I switched to more Enya, a CD I hadn't played for a couple weeks, turned the sound way down, and loved every minute of it, sleepily "day-"dreaming instead of sleeping.

Insomnia--that's another convergence between us. The anti-depressants, anti-otherstuff and the pain meds don't mix all that well. Besides which, I never quite stop hurting in my joints--the big ones, not the little finger and toe ones--no matter HOW much stuff I throw at it. So I go for a modest comfort and just accept it, offer it in sacrifice for the happy purposes I love to set before the Most High.

Re: Amazed--and (very) early morning noises....

[sabre_hawke]

Got gout? LOL. That's my newest thing -- right foot (first knuckle of the big toe and my ankle). The whole thing swells up, is hot to the touch, is rashed up to my mid calf, and hurts to walk on. Have to put it up over my heart for several hours (sometimes a few days) to get it to go down. At first they weren't sure what it was -- but now I've had a second "break out" of it -- I'm pretty sure. (It's usually caused by uremia.) In my case, since I know I'm already uremic, it seems to be "triggered" by over-activity. First time was Winter Solstice, as I'd spent several days cleaning and re-organizing the house before-hand. This week I tried to pace myself -- took down Xmas decs. and cleaned out the washroom. Kitchen still looks more like a garage at the moment... :-) But the long hours of activity ended up putting me to bed for most of today with the foot. (And tired, too.) I know they have treatments for it -- so another note to remember to send the doc.

Love you! And I'm so glad you found what you were looking for at Radio Shack!
-L

Re: Amazed--and (very) early morning noises....

[cryingwoman]

I wanted to respond to the sleepily "day" dreaming instead of sleeping.

That is what I call reverie - which when I looked up the correct spelling, it means daydream :) = a state of idle and pleasant contemplation.

The point I'm making, is that as a spiritual person, I sometimes get more rest!! when using reverie then sometimes when actually sleeping. I find that you are in what I call "God State" or "Higher Self State" when you use reverie, which is why I think you get more "rest" than sleeping. :)

If I was to get silly, this is what they/me consider the elves to do in RPG's when they rest. And if you watch StarGate, this is what Tilc does when he uses his candles. (in my opinion of course)

Thought I would share that.....

Re: Amazed--and (very) early morning noises....

[nman_in_black]

Reverie! Yes, and yes to Til'c. Contemplation is another form of the same. Very restful, very much higher self state.

Re: Amazed--and (very) early morning noises....

[nman_in_black]

For the pedants among us it is spelled "Teal'c."

Re: Amazed--and (very) early morning noises....

[sabre_hawke]

Yeah, knowing me (and being one of my closest friends), cryingwoman wouldn't know anything about pedantry and how to deal with pedants.... :-) And I had to see Teal'c's name in print before I figured it out...

Re: Amazed--and (very) early morning noises....

[nman_in_black]

How do I access messages earlier than December? I cannot find a way. What am I missing?

Re: Amazed--and (very) early morning noises....

[sabre_hawke]

Yes. I do this when I'm reading, too. I "become" part of the story, and it's incredibly restful. It's not my life, and yet it gives me a different way to approach and deal with my life on a completely "other" level.