Rescue Me
The questions flash before my eyes
Clouding the truth from the lies
I can't see reason through the mist
Am I truly alone in this?
No one ever hears my pleas
In confusions such as these
Do they even notice me at all?
Or am I just a shadow on the wall?
Are You the one who sees me?
Are You the one who hears me?
It wouldn't surpise me if nothing truly matters.
But do I have to scream?
Do I have to cry?
Do I have to twist in the soul-filled agony?
Do I have to bleed?
Do I have to die
Just to have some peace at night?
Oh, God, speak to me
I need to hear Your voice
Here I'm walking down the halls
Clinging to the mighty walls
Of my mind in signs of trouble
But then I'm buried beneath the rubble
Since I've been holding back til now
What's the point in explaining how
The demons come for me again
And even the belief they'll someday win?
Are You the one who sees me?
Are You the one who hears me?
It wouldn't surprise me if nothing truly matters.
But do I have to scream?
Do I have to cry?
Do I have to twist in the soul-filled agony?
Do I have to bleed?
Do I have to die
Just to have some peace at night?
Oh, God, speak to me
I need to hear Your voice.
Why can't I have my redemption?
Why can't I go back to the past?
Why should I even be listening
When they tear at me, rip at me
Yell at me, lie to me?
But You're the one who sees me
And You're the one who hears me
And You're the only one who tells me
"Everything's gonna be fine...."
But I don't wanna scream
I don't wanna cry
I don't wanna twist in the soul-filled agony
I don't wanna bleed
And I don't wanna die
I just want some peace at night
Why should I have to scream?
Why should I have to cry?
Why should I have to twist in the blood-soaked memories?
Why should I have to die
If only just to live?
I just need some peace tonight!
Oh, God, speak to me
Oh, God, please rescue me
I only need to be free....
(Written September 26, 2008)