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When my mom and I went out to feed, Gracie was down and couldn't get up. I managed to get her on her feet three times but she was just too weak to stand and she kept falling back down. I sat with her head in my lap and felt the old familiar ache of a broken heart, and I cried. I broke down completely. Its been a long time since I felt that kind of hopeless heartache.
I guess I'm finally an adult at last. I decided that it was enough. Gracie never stopped fighting, but one thing I learned in Florida which was the hardest lesson I've ever had to choke down is knowing when to say enough. Gracie was a fighter, she would never give up, but I decided it was enough. Enough fighting, enough suffering. I sat with her and sang to her, all the most beautiful songs I knew. When the vet came I thanked him for coming out and I held her and whispered to her about lush green meadows and beautiful blue skies and rainbow fields of wild flowers. I whispered about honey suckle scented breezes, and running for hours on end and never feeling tired, and of clover patches as soft as clouds and sleeping in the warm sun. I whispered to her about all the things horses dream about, and how they were almost hers. Just a few more moments, and they would all be hers...
And with a sigh she was gone.
I miss you so much, but I'm so happy you're free now, and thank you for fighting so hard to stay with me for so long.
I guess I'm finally an adult at last. I decided that it was enough. Gracie never stopped fighting, but one thing I learned in Florida which was the hardest lesson I've ever had to choke down is knowing when to say enough. Gracie was a fighter, she would never give up, but I decided it was enough. Enough fighting, enough suffering. I sat with her and sang to her, all the most beautiful songs I knew. When the vet came I thanked him for coming out and I held her and whispered to her about lush green meadows and beautiful blue skies and rainbow fields of wild flowers. I whispered about honey suckle scented breezes, and running for hours on end and never feeling tired, and of clover patches as soft as clouds and sleeping in the warm sun. I whispered to her about all the things horses dream about, and how they were almost hers. Just a few more moments, and they would all be hers...
And with a sigh she was gone.
I miss you so much, but I'm so happy you're free now, and thank you for fighting so hard to stay with me for so long.
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