Bummed Out About Something other than School
I have friends which I spend a lot of time with however there's this one particular friend that I do like more than others. This is because out of everyone, this person values and cares about me. She listens to what I have to say; takes interest and responds to what i like to do and most of all, treats what I think and do as something important to her.
Lately though I don't feel this quality is coming through as usual and it's a little lonely. Lately she has been interrupting when I'm trying to speak, breaking a commitment for no reason, and making assumptions about what I'm thinking. I know that this is not her consistent behaviour and she still does other things that show consideration but I still feel depressed about the other stuff.
I don't feel like I want to talk or do anything with anyone anymore... especially since I get the feeling everyone else in this circle doesn't value me that much either...
I guess it is up to me to try to get their attention... that's the story of my life though and I'm tired of begging for it. Years of negative reinforcement tells me I don't get anything from asking or expecting anything from anybody (unless it is a slap in the face).
I know that if I do ask this friend, she will take it seriously but I realize there are still walls for me to overcome. Am I ready to overcome it?It is also difficult to recognize, pinpoint and address the problem when you are in the situation in a positive way.
I'll think about it some more
Lately though I don't feel this quality is coming through as usual and it's a little lonely. Lately she has been interrupting when I'm trying to speak, breaking a commitment for no reason, and making assumptions about what I'm thinking. I know that this is not her consistent behaviour and she still does other things that show consideration but I still feel depressed about the other stuff.
I don't feel like I want to talk or do anything with anyone anymore... especially since I get the feeling everyone else in this circle doesn't value me that much either...
I guess it is up to me to try to get their attention... that's the story of my life though and I'm tired of begging for it. Years of negative reinforcement tells me I don't get anything from asking or expecting anything from anybody (unless it is a slap in the face).
I know that if I do ask this friend, she will take it seriously but I realize there are still walls for me to overcome. Am I ready to overcome it?It is also difficult to recognize, pinpoint and address the problem when you are in the situation in a positive way.
I'll think about it some more