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Hmmmmmmm hmmmmmmmmmmm hmmmmmmmmmmmm hoooooooow arrrrrrre youuuuuuuuuuuu....
I had a dream I took this pill I got from Stocko...it was this thing that had opium, mescaline, and a bunch of other shit in it. It made me feel so good. Hyper, crazy, fun, wild. But then we were all sleeping in this like..four story garage-type bunker thing. We were on the top level, "The Gameroom" one of the locals called it. The whole story blew up one day. I asked if everyone was okay. One lady said there was only one fatality. I asked if she saw who it was, and could describe him or her. She said yes, she could. It was a young man, tall, dark brown straight hair, very thin. I broke down in tears, convulsions, and started screaming, "NO, NO NO!" over and over. I found a picture of him, and curled up into a ball on the floor, unable to breathe. His friends told me I had nothing to cry over. I hadn't been with him for that long. "I've been his best friend for over a year," Chris says. It doesn't matter, none of this matters. Sure they all knew him, knew him well. But I knew his heart. Oh my god, it was awful. Soon after, Chris comes up to me. I tell him there was nobody like Jon. He says "There's one guy just like him."
"Who?"
"Me."
This is when Chris attempts to kiss me. My heart drops from the pain of someone else's lips. I can't do this, I think to myself.
I wake up. Jon is still gone. I go out into a common room where everyone is, with bloodshot eyes. They all comfort me. I woke up, so I know this is real.
I wake up again. I'm in my room. I take a shower, call Jon. I can hear his smile when he answers.
Worst nightmare ever.
Except for that one where Satan is trying to capture me in a gunny sack, to torture me.
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Well anyways. I have two new fishies. One of them has two names. Ozecki, and 187. We usually call him 187. The other is Enfuego. Enfuego Rojo is his full name, but that's too much. The first is this black and white striped thing that looks just like a bala shark, but isn't one. Enfuego is a betta. I have two new tattoos. IM me if you wanna see. ;)
I had a dream I took this pill I got from Stocko...it was this thing that had opium, mescaline, and a bunch of other shit in it. It made me feel so good. Hyper, crazy, fun, wild. But then we were all sleeping in this like..four story garage-type bunker thing. We were on the top level, "The Gameroom" one of the locals called it. The whole story blew up one day. I asked if everyone was okay. One lady said there was only one fatality. I asked if she saw who it was, and could describe him or her. She said yes, she could. It was a young man, tall, dark brown straight hair, very thin. I broke down in tears, convulsions, and started screaming, "NO, NO NO!" over and over. I found a picture of him, and curled up into a ball on the floor, unable to breathe. His friends told me I had nothing to cry over. I hadn't been with him for that long. "I've been his best friend for over a year," Chris says. It doesn't matter, none of this matters. Sure they all knew him, knew him well. But I knew his heart. Oh my god, it was awful. Soon after, Chris comes up to me. I tell him there was nobody like Jon. He says "There's one guy just like him."
"Who?"
"Me."
This is when Chris attempts to kiss me. My heart drops from the pain of someone else's lips. I can't do this, I think to myself.
I wake up. Jon is still gone. I go out into a common room where everyone is, with bloodshot eyes. They all comfort me. I woke up, so I know this is real.
I wake up again. I'm in my room. I take a shower, call Jon. I can hear his smile when he answers.
Worst nightmare ever.
Except for that one where Satan is trying to capture me in a gunny sack, to torture me.
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Well anyways. I have two new fishies. One of them has two names. Ozecki, and 187. We usually call him 187. The other is Enfuego. Enfuego Rojo is his full name, but that's too much. The first is this black and white striped thing that looks just like a bala shark, but isn't one. Enfuego is a betta. I have two new tattoos. IM me if you wanna see. ;)