the second that time breaks . . .
she has texted me and said she missed me again. after our little convo the other night i was beginning to wonder if i'd hear from her again. the back and forth emotions and all lol. sigh. but she said she missed me and figured i'd forgotten about her already ( i asked if she knew me at all :P ), and then attempted small talk. really it was my fault cuz i was weak and said i missed her, but argh. I am too unbalanced for this atm. everytime i try to be productive i get distracted and emotional. so i just sit and pound my skull with hardstyle, which makes me happy. talk to people when i can. I'm pulling myself out of it bit by bit but her texting me has set me back ever slightly. Meh.