Ha! And I was worried, wtf . . . :D

[sabeth]

I really was. Insanely so. I waas all stressed and sick and omfg. But no, everything went great. Better than great. I was cuddled, pet, had my hand held, kissed like never before in my life, and cuddled some more. This girl is amazing, she's so sweet and affectionate and yet so deliciously 3v1l <3<3<3 My neck hurts in a few places from her biting me, my mouth's cut up in a few places from the ferocity of our kissing, and my bottom lip is a bit swollen, again from her teeth :D And yet at the same time she's so gentle and almost shy, all the while being a tease lol. And omg she loves to snuggle and cling and hold me really tight. She seems fascinated by my hands, kisses them a lot. She's assertive. And unafraid, which was a nice change lol. And she's beautiful omg, she has fantastic puppy eyes and a chibi look with her emo hair that omg kawai~~!! XD XD XD I want to eat her all up rofl. like, uber-rawr. And I'm developing this slight affection, which scares me just a little, but I can't help it. She looked like she was about to cry when it was time to walk to the bus, which was thankfully missed, although by accident, leading to the night of snuggling and making out. She says she can't stop thinking about me, gazes at me like I'm actually worth looking at, holds my hand and makes me feel like she wants to be around me. I've got some pretty freaking thick and high walls, but she's managed to chink them, which means it's only a matter of time until I'm swooning like an idiot over her. sigh. But it's so exciting! While I didn't feel like I expected when she kissed me, it was still fantastic, especially five seconds later with her hand dug in my hair and her lips smashed against mine, her tongue invading me completely ^_^;;; God it was just so sweetly vicious, I don't quite know how to decscribe it, like I said I've never been kissed like that. It's even more insane because she does these cute little teasy kisses and then suddenly it's like O.O;;;;! and then i can't think anymore :D I love how affectionate she is. Like, seriously. I've always felt like that, clingy and cuddly and touchy, and it's always seemed to be too much. Not with her, she's just as into it, which is either really good or really bad. I'll take it as good for the moment. I'm an idiot. I'm only setting myself up for hurt with this. She'll get bored with me eventually, or I'll open up to her completely and scare her away. Or I could enact some other horrible stupidity and fuck everything up. But I want this so bad. She seems so freaking into me, it rocks. And I want to know how far our similairities go. I want to know more about her. I want to know how much of a sadist she is. Stuff like that lol. And I'm keeping my fingers crossed that we'll get to roll on tuesday. She said she'd get it tuesday or wednesday so hopefully. that would be amazing. I can't wait to see her again, she's gonna come over on her day off, which is either tuesday or wednesday, can't remember off the top of my haed, but yay! Argh we're texting <3s back and forth, I'm so screwed :D Not quite yet, but yeah, it's coming.

But for now, I will enjoy the amazingness whilst I can.