crossroads
Confused again.
I suppose it doesn't say much for me that my decisions about what to do are influenced by my friends. Five years had passed and I haven't pursued my childhood dream of being a lawyer. Then here comes a friend who says she wants to and I'm game. Then she tells me she's changed her mind and now I'm wondering if I really want to.
Then it occurred to me, if I really wanted it in the first place, nothing would've stopped me. I would have gone and pursued it anytime in the last few years. But I've always found an excuse not to. Disappointment, disillusionment, whatever it was, it shouldn't have stopped me.
So the question is, and one that I've asked myself countless of times, "Do I really want to?"
Perhaps I am just fascinated by the occasional debates and being able to back it up with something legal. Perhaps I find the way the law works both interesting and frustrating.
Or perhaps I've seen how this particular field has made my uncle's life comfortable and I want that too. Seeing it as a way to achieve material and financial comfort? Why not?
Den asked me once, "Why not study something that'll enhance your talent in the arts?" Again, it's something I had long asked myself. If my goal was to be comfortably off, what's stopping me from being a good, no... excellent, artist instead of being an ok lawyer?
There's so much opportunities available for me out there, I know. What path to take is now the question.
And frankly, I do want to be really good with art. And writing. Half of the sites I browse are about that. Most of the books I read are about that. Law? Hardly a glance.
Some say I should give it a try. I just might find that I'd really like it. But I wonder...
Just rambling again. Don't mind me.
I suppose it doesn't say much for me that my decisions about what to do are influenced by my friends. Five years had passed and I haven't pursued my childhood dream of being a lawyer. Then here comes a friend who says she wants to and I'm game. Then she tells me she's changed her mind and now I'm wondering if I really want to.
Then it occurred to me, if I really wanted it in the first place, nothing would've stopped me. I would have gone and pursued it anytime in the last few years. But I've always found an excuse not to. Disappointment, disillusionment, whatever it was, it shouldn't have stopped me.
So the question is, and one that I've asked myself countless of times, "Do I really want to?"
Perhaps I am just fascinated by the occasional debates and being able to back it up with something legal. Perhaps I find the way the law works both interesting and frustrating.
Or perhaps I've seen how this particular field has made my uncle's life comfortable and I want that too. Seeing it as a way to achieve material and financial comfort? Why not?
Den asked me once, "Why not study something that'll enhance your talent in the arts?" Again, it's something I had long asked myself. If my goal was to be comfortably off, what's stopping me from being a good, no... excellent, artist instead of being an ok lawyer?
There's so much opportunities available for me out there, I know. What path to take is now the question.
And frankly, I do want to be really good with art. And writing. Half of the sites I browse are about that. Most of the books I read are about that. Law? Hardly a glance.
Some say I should give it a try. I just might find that I'd really like it. But I wonder...
Just rambling again. Don't mind me.