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Today wasn't a bad day. It was good, as they have been but... sitting in my condo by myself has been an adventure. I can't handle the solitude. It's not so much that I have not been going out, oh no. Cat and I have been adventuring to Borders, roaming around down 4th st for food, and we are planning on going to see Megamind soon but returning to the quiet lonesome of my home is very unnerving.
I just don't know what to do with myself when it comes down to it. I feel like I cannot do anything. I can't breath and I panic easily. I have been trying to distract myself but I find it difficult to sleep at night. All of the doors are locked, even though this is a secure building I have locked the front door to the condo.
Perhaps I am being overly paranoid, but I don't feel comfortable. I've even started locking the door to my room (which it's new to me, I've never locked my room before as I never had a lock previously). I really hate being alone.
I've been playing on xbox live more though. I watched most of the Ahh! Real Monsters series, and I might start up Assassin's Creed tomorrow. I have nothing going on through the day and that might help take my mind off of everything.
I am showing a house on Saturday, and I paid the man doing the lawn care for my grandmother on one of the properties she is selling. It is actually a very cute little house and after the job that lawn care man did? I think it'll be an easy sell. It looks good, in my opinion, but it needs some work. The house I am showing Saturday should prove to be interesting. I was never interested in realty before but it's been quite an experience. I'm not sure I am committed enough to get my license and sell myself.
I leave this song with you as I head to bed.
I just don't know what to do with myself when it comes down to it. I feel like I cannot do anything. I can't breath and I panic easily. I have been trying to distract myself but I find it difficult to sleep at night. All of the doors are locked, even though this is a secure building I have locked the front door to the condo.
Perhaps I am being overly paranoid, but I don't feel comfortable. I've even started locking the door to my room (which it's new to me, I've never locked my room before as I never had a lock previously). I really hate being alone.
I've been playing on xbox live more though. I watched most of the Ahh! Real Monsters series, and I might start up Assassin's Creed tomorrow. I have nothing going on through the day and that might help take my mind off of everything.
I am showing a house on Saturday, and I paid the man doing the lawn care for my grandmother on one of the properties she is selling. It is actually a very cute little house and after the job that lawn care man did? I think it'll be an easy sell. It looks good, in my opinion, but it needs some work. The house I am showing Saturday should prove to be interesting. I was never interested in realty before but it's been quite an experience. I'm not sure I am committed enough to get my license and sell myself.
I leave this song with you as I head to bed.
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