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Today was a heinous/good day. I wasn't doing too well until the afternoon when Bonnie played me songs and made me feel better and happier. Then I had a good talk with Marcos. In between all that and my very long day in bed I came to a few conclusions. First of all... some people are a lot wiser then you admit at the time. For instance my high school peer support teacher I now realize taught us more about helping ourselves then we really learned about helping others. Just took me a while to really listen to what she was saying. She used to say that people have things backwards, they say to change the behaviour and the action will follow. So while you're getting into a mindset you just keep doing the same thing and nothing ever changes. If you really want to change then you have to change the action and the mindset will follow once you realize the effects of doing or not doing something is having on you.
So as of today I have a new goal: Stop trying to get into the right place to change things and just freaking change them already. And while I'm deciding on the things to do or not do I have found a new way to judge my actions - how would I feel if one of my friends were doing it? Because I am my own worst enemy and I do a lot of things to myself that I would be sad if my friends did.
So as of today I have a new goal: Stop trying to get into the right place to change things and just freaking change them already. And while I'm deciding on the things to do or not do I have found a new way to judge my actions - how would I feel if one of my friends were doing it? Because I am my own worst enemy and I do a lot of things to myself that I would be sad if my friends did.