So this is goodbye

[saazsparklestar]

I'm ready to leave!!
Nervous
scared
Excited
Tempted
Afraid
Concerned about not being able to use my phone all summer
Again really nervous

But I can't wait
I can't wait to explore new surroundings
new faces
Israelis
Hebrew studies
Canada
smiling children
Sunsets
Trees
song filled prayers
Homesick Children to comfort
Spirit
a new friend
a new journey
~Life~

Maybe I'll love it and I'll finally make a decision about
Becoming a Rabbi
This could really be amazing and ideal for me.
So this must be right
Going away to a new Jewish reformed camp.
This could be me.
I just have to make it happen
and not give up on what it is that makes me happy.
I'm not leaving so I can get away from my family
It's just something I need for myself
I think so much clearer when I'm alone and away from my comfort zone.
Nobody is there to tell me what to do.
It's nice
I can think for myself.
make wise decisions.
Hopefully nothing less.

I'll miss you
so much
I love you
You are amazing
You really are amazing.
I'll be back soon :)

This is going to be my last entry so I just want to wish everyone a very happy Summer
Enjoy the sunshine and breath in the aroma of the trees and flowers
It's beautiful
really beautiful

Lyla Tov (Goodnight)