RL relationship woes...
So my boyfriend of about 9 months just broke up with me about...2-3 weeks ago. And yes, I'm fine now. I did the whole suddenly burst out crying thing already. It was quite embarrassing, but oh well.
I'm still not quite sure what happened. We didn't have a fight. Nothing was wrong (that I know of). He basically walked me home and broke up with me on the way. Even brought my stuff that I left over at his place over. But that last bit wasn't quite him being an asshole and more of him wanting to save me the trouble of having to go to his place to pick them up. Still, I don't think he realizes that it sends the message of 'I completely just want to be rid of you, so hey, here's your stuff'. Oh, boys.
Anyways, I've been thinking about our relationship and it's totally better this way. He has stress issues and tend to be really short with people when he gets that way. And I usually get the brunt of it 'cause I'm was at his place all the time. So most of the time he just made me want to smack him upside the head, but I just push it down and remind myself that he was really stressed with schoolwork and stuff. Completely ignoring the fact that _I_ was really stressed too, but I never act like that towards him. Also, with him, I always accepted the fact that I was last on his priority list and as my friends has told me, I really shouldn't have had to. And plus, I'm pretty sure I was only with him to get over the fact that I'm pretty much in love with one of my bestfriends who had a girlfriend at the time.
Oh life.
Yes, the guy that I totally thought that I might've been homewrecking. But now that we're both single, things are back to square one. With the whole cuddling/napping/massage thing. He's totally sending me mixed messages and I'm confused as hell. Like, he'll act all sweet with me when we're alone, but when it's us plus one of our other friends, he'll barely look at me. And I wanna say something to him, but how do you bring up a subject like this. We've both been ignoring this thing between us for so long it seems like a big thing now.
So yea, I just don't know.
I'm still not quite sure what happened. We didn't have a fight. Nothing was wrong (that I know of). He basically walked me home and broke up with me on the way. Even brought my stuff that I left over at his place over. But that last bit wasn't quite him being an asshole and more of him wanting to save me the trouble of having to go to his place to pick them up. Still, I don't think he realizes that it sends the message of 'I completely just want to be rid of you, so hey, here's your stuff'. Oh, boys.
Anyways, I've been thinking about our relationship and it's totally better this way. He has stress issues and tend to be really short with people when he gets that way. And I usually get the brunt of it 'cause I'm was at his place all the time. So most of the time he just made me want to smack him upside the head, but I just push it down and remind myself that he was really stressed with schoolwork and stuff. Completely ignoring the fact that _I_ was really stressed too, but I never act like that towards him. Also, with him, I always accepted the fact that I was last on his priority list and as my friends has told me, I really shouldn't have had to. And plus, I'm pretty sure I was only with him to get over the fact that I'm pretty much in love with one of my bestfriends who had a girlfriend at the time.
Oh life.
Yes, the guy that I totally thought that I might've been homewrecking. But now that we're both single, things are back to square one. With the whole cuddling/napping/massage thing. He's totally sending me mixed messages and I'm confused as hell. Like, he'll act all sweet with me when we're alone, but when it's us plus one of our other friends, he'll barely look at me. And I wanna say something to him, but how do you bring up a subject like this. We've both been ignoring this thing between us for so long it seems like a big thing now.
So yea, I just don't know.