The "My life is such a teenage movie" cliche post...
My boy non-problem that I've been dealing with for the better part of a year.
So there's this boy that I met first year in orientation. He was one of the most obnoxious guy I have ever met ever. He, literally, annoyed me first time we met. He became friends with one of my roommate, so he started coming over _all_ the time, which just annoyed me even more. Then I found out he was in my Chemistry lab, so we became lab partners, because at least I knew of him. Through the common pain of writing the labs we became close, so he started coming over _all_ the time to hang out with me. A teeny tiny crush developed on my end. This would be all nice and dandy, except for a BIG BIG problem.
He has a girlfriend, who he has been dating for a little over two years (as of now).
But it was a teeny tiny crush (at the time), so I just pushed it to the back of my mind and didn't think about it much. Then summer came and I went back to Vancouver and didn't see him for 4 months, though we were on msn quite a lot. The crush was pretty much forgotten by this time.
Then this year happend. Due to our schedule (which we coordinate together), I see him a lot. We have all the same classes, tutorials, and labs. And due to over exposure, the crush just exploded. Then somehow he started giving me massages on the semi-regular bases and we started napping/cuddling together during the down times and yea. Half the time I think he feels the same way, but most of the time I remind myself that he's just really touchy and HAS A GIRLFRIEND (for 2 years). Apparently we flirt (I didn't even know I was doing it) so much that all our friends think there's something going on (And they don't even know about the cuddling parts). There really isn't. Sometimes I feel like I'm homewrecking or whatever, even though I'm not 'cause it's just cuddling. It's like we're making out and having sex. Then I think about how if my boyfriend was cuddling with another girl I'd be so pissed at him...which makes me think about stopping the napping sessions, but I really really don't want to.
It's really frustrating. Sometimes I just wanna tell him that I like him, but there's no point ruining a friendship because I can't get my heart to listen to my head.
Hence why this is a non-problem. I'm never gonna do anything, because either way I lose.
I know I sound really down about this...but really, I'm mostly okay with it. It sucks, I'm not gonna lie, it sucks so much, but I've accepted it.
So there's this boy that I met first year in orientation. He was one of the most obnoxious guy I have ever met ever. He, literally, annoyed me first time we met. He became friends with one of my roommate, so he started coming over _all_ the time, which just annoyed me even more. Then I found out he was in my Chemistry lab, so we became lab partners, because at least I knew of him. Through the common pain of writing the labs we became close, so he started coming over _all_ the time to hang out with me. A teeny tiny crush developed on my end. This would be all nice and dandy, except for a BIG BIG problem.
He has a girlfriend, who he has been dating for a little over two years (as of now).
But it was a teeny tiny crush (at the time), so I just pushed it to the back of my mind and didn't think about it much. Then summer came and I went back to Vancouver and didn't see him for 4 months, though we were on msn quite a lot. The crush was pretty much forgotten by this time.
Then this year happend. Due to our schedule (which we coordinate together), I see him a lot. We have all the same classes, tutorials, and labs. And due to over exposure, the crush just exploded. Then somehow he started giving me massages on the semi-regular bases and we started napping/cuddling together during the down times and yea. Half the time I think he feels the same way, but most of the time I remind myself that he's just really touchy and HAS A GIRLFRIEND (for 2 years). Apparently we flirt (I didn't even know I was doing it) so much that all our friends think there's something going on (And they don't even know about the cuddling parts). There really isn't. Sometimes I feel like I'm homewrecking or whatever, even though I'm not 'cause it's just cuddling. It's like we're making out and having sex. Then I think about how if my boyfriend was cuddling with another girl I'd be so pissed at him...which makes me think about stopping the napping sessions, but I really really don't want to.
It's really frustrating. Sometimes I just wanna tell him that I like him, but there's no point ruining a friendship because I can't get my heart to listen to my head.
Hence why this is a non-problem. I'm never gonna do anything, because either way I lose.
I know I sound really down about this...but really, I'm mostly okay with it. It sucks, I'm not gonna lie, it sucks so much, but I've accepted it.