le sigh
mike passed away a couple days ago. Im taking it harder than i thought. I was so excited when he came back from Shep cause he was like Yeah, we'll hang out, go for rides, and ill finally get that dvd to ya! Then he came back...and i work all the time, so...i hadnt gotten to see him...and then...this happens. It sucks so bad. I tried listening to music, but it was SOAD...he was really into SOAD... and then i listened to incubus...which...didnt really help either. God, this sucks so bad. Im so worried about tommy. I really wish i had the balls to call him. I really hope he's ok. I hope he chills out, ya know lays off stuff.
The other night when i got home i was online and JRs away message was something like Rest in peace mike, you'll be missed, we love you. And my friend thought was BALDONI?!?!?! But i was like Nope, cant be, cant POSSBILY be him. Then yesterday morning i got online and read tacy's lj. It was all over. I cried and cried. I called syd...i was planning on going over there anyway....i told her what happened and then i hurried my ass over to bville. Crying almost the whole way there. We hung out for a while then i came home to kill time...waiting for daniel to get off sucks sometimes. On the way home i cried again. I KNEW i should've called Evan...i called him before iw ent to syds...he didnt know anything happened. He tried callin tommy, but thomas didnt answer, so he called tyler. Then he called me back to tell me the story. Evan called me a few times yesterday to make sure i was alright...thanks evan :) Daniel called while i was with syd...he said i sounded weird so i told him about...the ish. He took good care of me last night. Im so glad he's around. mmm i miss mike--i mean, who's gonna calm me down when tommy continuously fucks up? haha. I really dont want to go to work today. i dont feel like putting up with people.
fuck some work. :(
The other night when i got home i was online and JRs away message was something like Rest in peace mike, you'll be missed, we love you. And my friend thought was BALDONI?!?!?! But i was like Nope, cant be, cant POSSBILY be him. Then yesterday morning i got online and read tacy's lj. It was all over. I cried and cried. I called syd...i was planning on going over there anyway....i told her what happened and then i hurried my ass over to bville. Crying almost the whole way there. We hung out for a while then i came home to kill time...waiting for daniel to get off sucks sometimes. On the way home i cried again. I KNEW i should've called Evan...i called him before iw ent to syds...he didnt know anything happened. He tried callin tommy, but thomas didnt answer, so he called tyler. Then he called me back to tell me the story. Evan called me a few times yesterday to make sure i was alright...thanks evan :) Daniel called while i was with syd...he said i sounded weird so i told him about...the ish. He took good care of me last night. Im so glad he's around. mmm i miss mike--i mean, who's gonna calm me down when tommy continuously fucks up? haha. I really dont want to go to work today. i dont feel like putting up with people.
fuck some work. :(