2 and half years and im not ok

[saari]

i had a dream about kristin this morning. I was someones house...(i dunno where the hell i was...just some one from CC...) and it was like...after school i guess....and kristin came to the house. This was after she died...and i guess she didnt really know she was dead. And whosever house i was at knew she was dead but just went a long with it so kristin didnt realize what happened. When she walked through the door my jaw dropped...and kristin said hey and all that good stuff. It was just like nothing had happened. I was crying in the dream..i woke up..NOT crying...but i woke up kinda in shock...like...it took me a second to process it all then i started cryin like no bodys buisness. It made me wish my mom was home...im here alone and that sucked....well..i guess had my half brother or Rick been here it wouldn't've helped too much...but...meh.

well..i guess its time to pretend like this never happened and get ready for work....