I hate it!!!
I hate it when life forces me to do things I don't wanna.
Right now my main problem is the same since January. I'm unemployed so I need to find a job... Last summer I graduated as a kindergarten teacher but already during university years I felt it's not something for me. It's not that I don't like playing with kids or something. I love it, honestly, but how it is right now here, I don't like to do it that way. So I decided to look for some other type of job though it would be much easier to find one in that sector.
But I didn't mind the difficulties what came cause I gues I wanted to test myself how can I bear with it.
So I spent the last two months applying for jobs, get a few interviews but I never got a job. But this last one was the worst. I really was sure that I'll get it cause I have all the qualities they wished and I had some help from inside cause my father knows the boss there and he was kind of interested that I wanted to work there. And though I passed till the second round, they chose someone else. I was hurt cause they didn't even give a chance to meet personally. They decided simply on the CV-s. I was totally disappointed. And all my mother could say at it that "take it as God's sign" and that our one of our friends worked their and she hated it so it must be a horrieble workplace. I hate it when they think just because someone else hated that job I'll hate that too! I am not someone else! Why is it that hard to understand???
So I started everything all over again. Looking for job ads all day, sending out CV-s and e-mails. I so hate it! Cause all the ads are looking for people in the marketing and management sectors and I don't have the qualification or the interest to do something like that... And in the end I applied for a job at a day care center. It's ironic that I don't have other choice just this. And they just called me on the same day I sent my CV and tomorrow I'll have an interview with them. I can't help but feel that life forces me to do this. And I don't like it. I hate the feeling of being forced to do something and I think that this job, taking care of kids is something you shouldn't do because you forced to do it. But again maybe I'm just a coward and don't dare to do something what needs this much responsobility... I don't know... I decided to give it a shoot and then go with the flow. But I determind to turn it down if they won't let me to go back to university in September. Cause this is something I won't give up, no matter what!
So, good luck to me for tomorrow!...
Right now my main problem is the same since January. I'm unemployed so I need to find a job... Last summer I graduated as a kindergarten teacher but already during university years I felt it's not something for me. It's not that I don't like playing with kids or something. I love it, honestly, but how it is right now here, I don't like to do it that way. So I decided to look for some other type of job though it would be much easier to find one in that sector.
But I didn't mind the difficulties what came cause I gues I wanted to test myself how can I bear with it.
So I spent the last two months applying for jobs, get a few interviews but I never got a job. But this last one was the worst. I really was sure that I'll get it cause I have all the qualities they wished and I had some help from inside cause my father knows the boss there and he was kind of interested that I wanted to work there. And though I passed till the second round, they chose someone else. I was hurt cause they didn't even give a chance to meet personally. They decided simply on the CV-s. I was totally disappointed. And all my mother could say at it that "take it as God's sign" and that our one of our friends worked their and she hated it so it must be a horrieble workplace. I hate it when they think just because someone else hated that job I'll hate that too! I am not someone else! Why is it that hard to understand???
So I started everything all over again. Looking for job ads all day, sending out CV-s and e-mails. I so hate it! Cause all the ads are looking for people in the marketing and management sectors and I don't have the qualification or the interest to do something like that... And in the end I applied for a job at a day care center. It's ironic that I don't have other choice just this. And they just called me on the same day I sent my CV and tomorrow I'll have an interview with them. I can't help but feel that life forces me to do this. And I don't like it. I hate the feeling of being forced to do something and I think that this job, taking care of kids is something you shouldn't do because you forced to do it. But again maybe I'm just a coward and don't dare to do something what needs this much responsobility... I don't know... I decided to give it a shoot and then go with the flow. But I determind to turn it down if they won't let me to go back to university in September. Cause this is something I won't give up, no matter what!
So, good luck to me for tomorrow!...