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so i have made some decisions.
one i made on a very drnken night with jesse, who is FYI my ex again as of about 2 weeks ago.
so i had prohbably ther best evening of my life, topped off by the biggest epiphany i have had regarding what to do about jesse.
so then i called him, thinking that after all, being my friend, hed be interested in seeing my 50# cat i carved out of alabaster. i lefta message, no response.
so. that secured my idea that he can not be my friend for so many reasons, we cant be together despite love (the bastard thing) for so many more reasons.
so my epiphany was to walk away. i lost my independance so long ago i dont even remember what it feels like. but i think i fell out love with jesse early in the drunken night, had a wonderful last night towards the end of the night, and a morning and day that only enfdorceful the idea in my epiphany.
so i walk. i will not look back. i will only see him again in order to return big fluffy coat upon my return from WI.
this shall be interesting and painful though, since my chest looks like i was beaten, and my head is very confused. but my heart is finally saying "RUN, hunny, RUN!!!!!"
and so i run, and i will never look back.
one i made on a very drnken night with jesse, who is FYI my ex again as of about 2 weeks ago.
so i had prohbably ther best evening of my life, topped off by the biggest epiphany i have had regarding what to do about jesse.
so then i called him, thinking that after all, being my friend, hed be interested in seeing my 50# cat i carved out of alabaster. i lefta message, no response.
so. that secured my idea that he can not be my friend for so many reasons, we cant be together despite love (the bastard thing) for so many more reasons.
so my epiphany was to walk away. i lost my independance so long ago i dont even remember what it feels like. but i think i fell out love with jesse early in the drunken night, had a wonderful last night towards the end of the night, and a morning and day that only enfdorceful the idea in my epiphany.
so i walk. i will not look back. i will only see him again in order to return big fluffy coat upon my return from WI.
this shall be interesting and painful though, since my chest looks like i was beaten, and my head is very confused. but my heart is finally saying "RUN, hunny, RUN!!!!!"
and so i run, and i will never look back.