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Hi...I'm new here. I thought about this issue for a while, and some people have suggested I might have a problem with sex addiction, and I took a couple screening tests online (they all say I have it), but I dont know for sure if I do or not. What I DO know is:
I am engaged, and have been for 2 years this past November. What's worse, is he is suffering from low testerone, and hasn't been able to even kiss me in around a year. I have cheated a couple times here and there, and I hate it, but find myself unable to really do anything about it.
I struggle from Borderline Personality Disorder and Clinical Depression as well, and after having sex, I feel more depressed than I was before. Sex is empty to me, and even the last few times I had sex with my fiance, it felt empty. I have never orgasmed, and I feel like this situation will never change.
When I was younger, I wanted to remain a virgin til marriage due to my Religion, but I was raped @ 16, and after that, I just kind of went wild and went on to have risky sex (no protection or birth control) with over 40 men. I'm almost 21 and I'm so ashamed at the # of men I've slept with. I am also considering Laser Vaginal Rejuvenation due to my looseness. I caught HPV, and I'm SO lucky I never got anything more serious, or got pregnant.
I'm glad to be here, and to know I am not alone. I do not have insurance right now, so I can't afford to go to a therapist for my problems, but at least I'll be in similar company here. BTW, I am Danalee. Thanks again everyone.