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I would like to share with the members of this community, something I just posted in my journal. So what are your intentions for the coming year???
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Tonight I will participate in a sacred ceremony: a Buddhist intention setting ceremony. At this ceremony I will light a candle while I verbalize my intention for the coming year, announcing it to the room and the cosmos. Later I will tie a sacred string around my wrist as a reminder of the the three Buddhist refuges, the five Buddhist precepts, and my intention for 2009. This will be my third year participating in the ceremony. As you can imagine, setting the theme for my work in the coming year is very powerful, and I don't take this intention lightly. I have spent a good amount of time lately, trying to formulate it in my head. And I think I am finally getting a good grasp on it.
I have been depressed for too long. For nearly two years I have been angry, sad, and regretful. This has gone on long enough. It is my intention to rediscover my happiness. To find my laughter. To commit myself to a joyous life. To feel passion again. Zest. To remember who I was before all of the pain and suffering darkened my days. To be healthy; mentally, physically, and spiritually. To be more involved in the things that bring me joy, like nature and hiking and creative artistic endeavors either on the stage or the written word or with pictures or painting. To spend time with my friends; Playing games, Talking, Laughing, Going out, or doing nothing. To eat well and healthy. To cook more, with fresh ingredients. To love and live large. And appreciate all of the glorious people and places and things surrounding me.
And I know I have made claims like this before. I know I have said enough is enough. But this time I will print out this entry. I will tape it beside my bedroom door as a reminder every day when I wake up and join the world. Plus I have friends like you to hike with, to play games with, to travel with, to laugh with, to cook with. And I expect you to hold me to it. Because that's what friends are for. Kick me in the arse and hold me accountable.
I am tired of spiraling. I am tired of this darkness. I am tired of continually shoving these demons back down inside of me. It is time to fill my body with light so they will have no place to hide, and they will flee to another unfortunate soul and leave me alone.
I hereby declare in Buddhist terms, 2009 the year of mudita. This will be the year when everything becomes good again.
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Tonight I will participate in a sacred ceremony: a Buddhist intention setting ceremony. At this ceremony I will light a candle while I verbalize my intention for the coming year, announcing it to the room and the cosmos. Later I will tie a sacred string around my wrist as a reminder of the the three Buddhist refuges, the five Buddhist precepts, and my intention for 2009. This will be my third year participating in the ceremony. As you can imagine, setting the theme for my work in the coming year is very powerful, and I don't take this intention lightly. I have spent a good amount of time lately, trying to formulate it in my head. And I think I am finally getting a good grasp on it.
I have been depressed for too long. For nearly two years I have been angry, sad, and regretful. This has gone on long enough. It is my intention to rediscover my happiness. To find my laughter. To commit myself to a joyous life. To feel passion again. Zest. To remember who I was before all of the pain and suffering darkened my days. To be healthy; mentally, physically, and spiritually. To be more involved in the things that bring me joy, like nature and hiking and creative artistic endeavors either on the stage or the written word or with pictures or painting. To spend time with my friends; Playing games, Talking, Laughing, Going out, or doing nothing. To eat well and healthy. To cook more, with fresh ingredients. To love and live large. And appreciate all of the glorious people and places and things surrounding me.
And I know I have made claims like this before. I know I have said enough is enough. But this time I will print out this entry. I will tape it beside my bedroom door as a reminder every day when I wake up and join the world. Plus I have friends like you to hike with, to play games with, to travel with, to laugh with, to cook with. And I expect you to hold me to it. Because that's what friends are for. Kick me in the arse and hold me accountable.
I am tired of spiraling. I am tired of this darkness. I am tired of continually shoving these demons back down inside of me. It is time to fill my body with light so they will have no place to hide, and they will flee to another unfortunate soul and leave me alone.
I hereby declare in Buddhist terms, 2009 the year of mudita. This will be the year when everything becomes good again.