PRIVATE BLOG
Title : PRIVATE BLOG
Author : Sa_Runna
Pairing : Tora x Saga x Shou
Genre : Oneshot, Angst
Warnings : Bad Grammar,
Disclaimer : It’s mine. Seriously! My fic!
X-posted : aliceinloveland, my journal
Notes : -----------------Enjoy..
PRIVATE BLOGS--
I’m pissed.
I’m pissed that I could kill.
I think I’ve heard that line before. *I’m sorry for the plagiarism*^^;
And now I discover myself in that condition.
Is this the top of my depression?
Or it’s just the wrong time for me to know the truth?
You USED to treasure me that much.
USED.
That means a long time ago.
A real LONG time.
Not that long actually.
But 5 years of the uncertainty you gave me has an answer now.
I see you pictured yourself with another guy-i-don’t-know-who-the-hell-he-is in every corner of your blog.
Cheap lovey-dovey words announced intensively.
‘Shou loves Pon’
The same old one you USED to write my name on it.
‘Shou loves Sagacchi’
I’ll always be the first one for you.
Or so you USED to say.
Be the first is not the same with be the second or be the third or be the last.
The first is USED to have a special meaning.
USED.
Say, even if you are not the first one for me but you ARE special.
I always treasure you.
Not in words but in heart.
I don’t care if anyone cannot see that.
As long as I CAN treasure you.
That’s enough for me.
Now mention the THING that makes us break apart.
Something you can’t describe.
Something you can’t even tell.
Something that makes me says those painful words.
Something unsure that makes me scared.
Something I can’t even tell.
And I’m not the type who can forget someone so easily.
Am I being a jerk for you? A freak?
Well now you make me ONE.
If there’s something on me that bothering you, why don’t you just say it?
People talk.
And I can change.
Don’t be such a quiet coward.
I WAS the one who USED to receive your lump of affection.
After all your effort for making me fall for you.
Which are SUCESSFULLY done.
Tell me again why I should be the one being lonely.
Do I deserve to be the one suffering here, hey lover boy?
I recall the memory buried down in my head.
You USED to be the sweet and energetic little boyfriend I proudly have.
With that innocent “You’re my first one”-phrase.
Think again, dude.
The first one is always been an experiment.
If the first one failed, learn from your fault, and then don’t do the same thing to the second, to the third, to the last.
THANK YOU for selecting me to be that painful character on your game plan.
And now I can conclude that you’re THAT kind of guy.
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“Ooops, sorry... Oh, hey. You’re Saga, right?” someone stumbled his feet on my table. Someone I-don’t-know-who-the-heaven-he-was. I minimized the window in my laptop I’ve been doing.
“Um, yea. Pardon me but who are you?”
“I’m Tora. We’re in the same class in the 3rd grade of high school! Remember?” he said that with full enthusiasm. I tried to think who he was.
“Tora?? Erm.. He?! Shinji!! Wow, you’re changed! Where are your thick glasses?” I remembered a boy with the height around my shoulder back then. To think about it again I was the one whose height around his neck now.
“Heheh. Everyone changed! And I’m changed now! What are you doing here? You’re alone?” Sure he changed. 190 cm, dark brown light striped hair, stylish clothes and colored eye contacts. His already good looks changed even better now.
“Yea, I’m alone and I’m just finding a nice hot spot area here.”
“Waw, good. Bothered to have a lunch with me then? It’s been a long time, ne?”
“Oh, sure. But wait, I’ll finish my work first.”
“Okay calm down, I’ll wait.” He smiled. I smiled.
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Some people said that people CHANGED.
And they’re right.
People live to change.
5 years are long enough.
Friday 11th February 07, Sakamoto Takashi
Posted.
Log off.
I’d made this as an apology for the too-short-drabble-like chapter 5 of “Boku no Suki na Kuroi Neko” Sorry guys, I know you’re not satisfied with the 5th chapter so I hope you guys like this. And credits to
chibi_bisque
for beta reading this. I’m not going to post this if she doesn’t push me ^^;. Thank you, Girl..
Comments are welcomed as usual!! ~~<3