I am convinced
My mom is going to write a book on my grandpa. Which I think is awesome. It gives my mom a way to channel her mourning. I didn't expect her research to invlove her watching countless video footage of my grandpa when he was on tv. I never imagined how hard it would be to hear his voice again.
I was in my room watching True Blood and I hear his voice in the living room and I freaked out. At first, the voice sounded so familiar and so safe. After a second I pinpointed the voice and my eyes watered up. I was too chicken to go to the living room and watch the interviews. So I listened for a couple minutes, letting his voice and the safe feeling wash over me. I let the memories of my grandfather flood my senses. Then I got up and shut the door to my room, and turned up the volume on my computer. I choked back my tears and I didn't leave my room til I was sure the videos were finished and my mom was done crying. I just don't want to have to deal with that type of emotion right now. I know that's selfish. Its just.... that's how I deal.
On a totally separate and corny topic: When I get a boyfriend, I'm going to ask him to sing me NE-YO's miss independent. LMAO - That song cracks me up.
I was in my room watching True Blood and I hear his voice in the living room and I freaked out. At first, the voice sounded so familiar and so safe. After a second I pinpointed the voice and my eyes watered up. I was too chicken to go to the living room and watch the interviews. So I listened for a couple minutes, letting his voice and the safe feeling wash over me. I let the memories of my grandfather flood my senses. Then I got up and shut the door to my room, and turned up the volume on my computer. I choked back my tears and I didn't leave my room til I was sure the videos were finished and my mom was done crying. I just don't want to have to deal with that type of emotion right now. I know that's selfish. Its just.... that's how I deal.
On a totally separate and corny topic: When I get a boyfriend, I'm going to ask him to sing me NE-YO's miss independent. LMAO - That song cracks me up.