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sitting at work right now... around 8:15 in the morning.. way to early for anyone to have to wake up and go to work. i wish i was up so early b/c im gonna go surfing not b/c im going to work. oh well.
last night was soo fun i saw my bestest friend mary and morgan at a football game. brandon and ricky and nick was there. ha i saw kyle! ha i didnt even recognize him... yea. and brandon was there.i was kinda excited to get to chill it with him again. last time was a lot of fun. he looked soo hott and cute. yea i dunno. im kinda into him and i think he might be into me but i cant really tell tell. it would def be cool to chill with him b/c he seems like a really dateable guy and a good friend.hes funn and funny like me. ive been thinkin about him since last night. he has and extreemely great smile.i wanted to kiss him last night. ha yea big surprise there. but i probably wouldnt have even if he wanted to to. just cuz i think it would be better to wait cuz that was only our second time hanging out...
who knows i could be all wrong.. i could just want someone bad enough that im only seeing what i want to see. cuz i do really want to have someone. and it sucks when you dont.. sometimes not all the time. it sucks worse when your forced to be reminded of the ex that makes you scared to date anyone. i dont want anyone to turn on me like he did. and hes not the first. it sucks... all my life guy after guy has "turned" on me... my dad, all the boyfriends< most ill say> and just guys in general. i dont really have any guy friends.. except the ones i know through mary and morgan. and they are all really cool guys. i dunno maybe im just weird.
later
last night was soo fun i saw my bestest friend mary and morgan at a football game. brandon and ricky and nick was there. ha i saw kyle! ha i didnt even recognize him... yea. and brandon was there.i was kinda excited to get to chill it with him again. last time was a lot of fun. he looked soo hott and cute. yea i dunno. im kinda into him and i think he might be into me but i cant really tell tell. it would def be cool to chill with him b/c he seems like a really dateable guy and a good friend.hes funn and funny like me. ive been thinkin about him since last night. he has and extreemely great smile.i wanted to kiss him last night. ha yea big surprise there. but i probably wouldnt have even if he wanted to to. just cuz i think it would be better to wait cuz that was only our second time hanging out...
who knows i could be all wrong.. i could just want someone bad enough that im only seeing what i want to see. cuz i do really want to have someone. and it sucks when you dont.. sometimes not all the time. it sucks worse when your forced to be reminded of the ex that makes you scared to date anyone. i dont want anyone to turn on me like he did. and hes not the first. it sucks... all my life guy after guy has "turned" on me... my dad, all the boyfriends< most ill say> and just guys in general. i dont really have any guy friends.. except the ones i know through mary and morgan. and they are all really cool guys. i dunno maybe im just weird.
later