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at work right now. listening to music. slightly bored. i think im going to marys house later today after work, which rocks...
yea my mind is outta control. this whole moving thing is making me go insane... im too old to start the whole school thing over. im finally comfortable with myself enough to think fo rmy self and know what i want to do( kinda).
shit will piss me off and then ill feel like crying for no reason. one min. im happy the next im a million things at once.
im tired of saying bye to best friends. i said bye to mary and that sucked but we were still kinda close... and even now we dont ever see each other and im scared it will always be that way, and now im afraid it will be the same way with kt and miranda.
things started to kinda fit here. when i moved to chesapeake it was for the better, i changed but in a good way.
ive learned things and i just dont want to leave. how could you jjust leave a place when your comfortable. i wanted to be able to drive around with the friends ive made and have tons of fun my senior year. going to prom and stuff. it just wont be the same. im not ready to move. im gonna be so bitter. it doesnt feel like its going to actually happen it just feels like a dream and when you wake up and your not sure if it was real or not.. that sorta thing. i dunno... my feelings are on then off...one min. i wont even be thinking of moving then the next all i want to do is cry or im just feeling frustrated.
yea my mind is outta control. this whole moving thing is making me go insane... im too old to start the whole school thing over. im finally comfortable with myself enough to think fo rmy self and know what i want to do( kinda).
shit will piss me off and then ill feel like crying for no reason. one min. im happy the next im a million things at once.
im tired of saying bye to best friends. i said bye to mary and that sucked but we were still kinda close... and even now we dont ever see each other and im scared it will always be that way, and now im afraid it will be the same way with kt and miranda.
things started to kinda fit here. when i moved to chesapeake it was for the better, i changed but in a good way.
ive learned things and i just dont want to leave. how could you jjust leave a place when your comfortable. i wanted to be able to drive around with the friends ive made and have tons of fun my senior year. going to prom and stuff. it just wont be the same. im not ready to move. im gonna be so bitter. it doesnt feel like its going to actually happen it just feels like a dream and when you wake up and your not sure if it was real or not.. that sorta thing. i dunno... my feelings are on then off...one min. i wont even be thinking of moving then the next all i want to do is cry or im just feeling frustrated.