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over all was a good day. 1st bell was cool then second was alright we had to watch a movie all bell. then third bell was cool..not i didnt pay attention and drew pictures, then fourth bell was sweet... ha its funny as hell too.
yet another day when the thought of him falls into my head. i found out like he says hi to my brother and shit, but not me. whats up with that. yea i keep seein him walking with this girl. honestly it makes me a little jealous. like what does she have that i dont... shes not ugly but shes not all that pretty. iwish he would at least still talk to me and shit that would be soo good.. like thats all that i want. i seriously really wanna be his friend... like im the kinda person who can do that. he'll probably never now how i feel. but i almost dont want him to. i would want him to if he WANTED to.. ya know. i wish it didnt have to be like this. why would he try to be all chill with my brother?! it almost makes me mad... but no it makes me jealous... im not a very jealous person< like serio0us jealous.. so ya i kinda sucks that im jealous now... he says hi to my brother! i mean its sad for me. to know this guy that took me to the beach at night and we layed in a sleepin bag and just had fun being with each other now no longer speaks to me but says hi to my brother who he never did anything with AT ALL, except talk to when he came over and my bro was downstairs... im sooo fucking.. ahh i dont know... i wish.. and im nto the praying type...but i pray that it was different, that he would talk to me, i wish he would i pray he would. it sucks... plain and simple... just, it sucks... i just dont understand why he wont talk to me... id do anything if he would just talk to me.
i hope i eventually quit thinking about it but i dont think i will... he was my favorite boyfriend.
god i just want to cry...
i also pray to god that he doesnt get a g/f soon...
later
sam
yet another day when the thought of him falls into my head. i found out like he says hi to my brother and shit, but not me. whats up with that. yea i keep seein him walking with this girl. honestly it makes me a little jealous. like what does she have that i dont... shes not ugly but shes not all that pretty. iwish he would at least still talk to me and shit that would be soo good.. like thats all that i want. i seriously really wanna be his friend... like im the kinda person who can do that. he'll probably never now how i feel. but i almost dont want him to. i would want him to if he WANTED to.. ya know. i wish it didnt have to be like this. why would he try to be all chill with my brother?! it almost makes me mad... but no it makes me jealous... im not a very jealous person< like serio0us jealous.. so ya i kinda sucks that im jealous now... he says hi to my brother! i mean its sad for me. to know this guy that took me to the beach at night and we layed in a sleepin bag and just had fun being with each other now no longer speaks to me but says hi to my brother who he never did anything with AT ALL, except talk to when he came over and my bro was downstairs... im sooo fucking.. ahh i dont know... i wish.. and im nto the praying type...but i pray that it was different, that he would talk to me, i wish he would i pray he would. it sucks... plain and simple... just, it sucks... i just dont understand why he wont talk to me... id do anything if he would just talk to me.
i hope i eventually quit thinking about it but i dont think i will... he was my favorite boyfriend.
god i just want to cry...
i also pray to god that he doesnt get a g/f soon...
later
sam