i forgot i had a livejournal
seriously, for part of my existance since i've began this livejournal i forgot i had it. like i didn't think about my computer at all, like i would come over here to play with it sometimes (its at joel's house)but never want to go play with it much. and livejournal, wow it was honestly dead to me.
i really miss kevin, i saw his livejournal and broke down a little inside. but i'm glad he's enjoying life, i was always jealous of people that get opportunities handed to them. but to be completely truthful-he deserves them. i can't even start to explain how special he is to me. but thats just a huge abyss i'm stepping into now....
i love as i lay dying. fuck their new cd shadows are security....its good. damn good. sami thinks so. i've had it for awhile, my friend david gave it to me. i'm pretty sure you've heard about david if you've been in my life at all the past 4 months. hehe. i'm too tired to type, i just typed like three times this amount to max, he's in australia. he loves me. its kinda weird, but my love for him is growing too.....but he's far away, so i don't know what to believe. maybe distance just makes the heart grow fonder. or maybe this relationship is like a plant....(this is what max said) he just had to give it the right amount of water, sunlight, and food. and it will grow. he says he doesn't want to visit new zealand and he wants to come back to spend time with me, and then he wants to work, get out of debt, and then take me with him back out into the world. thats so romantic. god damnit. i really don't like livejournal. why am i typing this. EVERYONE KNOWS NOW. well i guess just my friends
actually the whole purpose of this entry was to let you know i'm still alive. because, yes, that is the most frequently asked question i am asked.
i really miss kevin, i saw his livejournal and broke down a little inside. but i'm glad he's enjoying life, i was always jealous of people that get opportunities handed to them. but to be completely truthful-he deserves them. i can't even start to explain how special he is to me. but thats just a huge abyss i'm stepping into now....
i love as i lay dying. fuck their new cd shadows are security....its good. damn good. sami thinks so. i've had it for awhile, my friend david gave it to me. i'm pretty sure you've heard about david if you've been in my life at all the past 4 months. hehe. i'm too tired to type, i just typed like three times this amount to max, he's in australia. he loves me. its kinda weird, but my love for him is growing too.....but he's far away, so i don't know what to believe. maybe distance just makes the heart grow fonder. or maybe this relationship is like a plant....(this is what max said) he just had to give it the right amount of water, sunlight, and food. and it will grow. he says he doesn't want to visit new zealand and he wants to come back to spend time with me, and then he wants to work, get out of debt, and then take me with him back out into the world. thats so romantic. god damnit. i really don't like livejournal. why am i typing this. EVERYONE KNOWS NOW. well i guess just my friends
actually the whole purpose of this entry was to let you know i'm still alive. because, yes, that is the most frequently asked question i am asked.