Indefinite Hiatus
I’ve actually been thinking about this since…the start of February? I started wondering why I stay on writing, because my inspiration source (Kemaru in the world) just…slowly disappeared. And now the news popped by and my world is spinning too fast, because everything’s gone. My stories don’t make any more sense and they’re just all cliché plots over and over again anyway. Don’t talk me out of this because I’ve set my head on it. Thinking of some plot that I actually really like became so difficult that it’s…tiring, and it’s making me sick of writing. Somehow the mental tiredness tires my body out too…and juggling between school work and writing is…yeah. Besides, I’m having exams in a month time.
And just so you know, my attitude towards the issue is this way, my image of Kibum and Xander right now is that they have a numb pain shooting at their heart like it is at me. It doesn’t make me cry, but I feel pain.
So I’m just notifying all (?) that I’m no longer writing. But as criticalchi has said, it’ll be more like I’m taking an indefinite hiatus. Though I don’t know how I’ll get back the desire to write if Kemaru is left like that. I don’t know when I’ll be back or if I’ll ever be back. I don’t want writing to become a burden, to write because I have to. That’s not nice, because I’m someone driven by motivation, and my motivation comes from the amount of like I have for that. To put it in an equation: Writer’s block + forcing myself to come up with something + issue = lesser motivation and like. Probably even hate.
Besides, if I were to really write Kemaru, it’ll all be broken, because the image in my head cannot be erased. To keep the Kemaru love going strong and all your beliefs out there alive, I pull out.
Some of you may hate me for this, but I can’t do anything about it. Sorry, really.
I’m just really, really tired.
A cup of sweet espresso, please? is a birthday fic, so I’m still considering if I’ll be writing it during my hiatus. There are no promises made, though. Sorry, lovelybrii12, really sorry!
And just so you know, my attitude towards the issue is this way, my image of Kibum and Xander right now is that they have a numb pain shooting at their heart like it is at me. It doesn’t make me cry, but I feel pain.
So I’m just notifying all (?) that I’m no longer writing. But as criticalchi has said, it’ll be more like I’m taking an indefinite hiatus. Though I don’t know how I’ll get back the desire to write if Kemaru is left like that. I don’t know when I’ll be back or if I’ll ever be back. I don’t want writing to become a burden, to write because I have to. That’s not nice, because I’m someone driven by motivation, and my motivation comes from the amount of like I have for that. To put it in an equation: Writer’s block + forcing myself to come up with something + issue = lesser motivation and like. Probably even hate.
Besides, if I were to really write Kemaru, it’ll all be broken, because the image in my head cannot be erased. To keep the Kemaru love going strong and all your beliefs out there alive, I pull out.
Some of you may hate me for this, but I can’t do anything about it. Sorry, really.
I’m just really, really tired.
A cup of sweet espresso, please? is a birthday fic, so I’m still considering if I’ll be writing it during my hiatus. There are no promises made, though. Sorry, lovelybrii12, really sorry!