finally
well, i guess you could say a lot of my day was devoted to music. i played guitar, not as much as i should have. i wish i had my amp with me. i was thinking about having my parents bring it down when they come down here for xmas. hmmm. i could fit it against my bed, and we're moving soon anyway. i hope. i played sax today, and i think my sax sucks. i mean, i think it might be broken or something. either that, or my jaw just sucks. i feel like i have to play really hard in order to get any kind of sound out. and, it's really hard to play soft. i don't know, it's probably something that i have to develope. i'll keep trying. i'm still thinking about buying that soprano sax. that would be pretty sweet. i would want to play kinda like wayne shorter, but have a tone like branford marsalis. yeah, like that's ever going to happen. my fingernails are getting really long, but i have to keep em that way to play the dulcimer the way i do. which reminds me, i have to start practicing hard for ucla. what should i play? i'll ask roger. maybe he can recommend me a song or something to play for those guys. after all, he says he knows about everyone over in the program. man, i hope in a burmese crowd gets big. that would be so much fun. all though, it would only be fun if we became legendary. if something happened to us where everything got screwed up, then it almost wouldn't be worth it. and so much stuff can go wrong with that kinda stuff. money, drugs, writers block, money, money, etc. i want to play guitar in a band again. i have a tripple rectifier dammit! it's going to waste if i don't use it. i'll just start something else i guess, but who would be in it? i guess i would want to write a lot of the parts, but, i can never be satisfied. writing stuff for i with fire was pretty easy at first, but i can't even get started with one part if i wanted to write again. i tried to write something on fruity loops today. i couldn't even do that. at first i started to like what i was doing, but then i ended deleting everything. i want to hear all those songs that i have written that never got finished. man, the descendents are so amazing. at least everything sucks is a great album. probably one of my favorites of all time. the music is so great. i want to be able to write parts like stephen egerton does. so melodic and non stop. how can one man create so many melodic lines? the dynamics in his playing are incredible too. man, he is so underrated. it's weird how his style is so different from all, but it's still so familiar. i guess it's all in his touch. i want to have that kind of touch. maybe i'm trying to play too many instruments. oh well, i have all my life don't i?