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So I sit here wondering why is it that my mom puts so much on my shoulders and why is it that she is so quick to yell at me. I think it is because she hates me. I think she really did want me to die form the excessive mount of pills I took 8/5/03. It's like everything I do is a failure to her. I can't get a job in the local area so she gets mad and accuses me of not looking. I coild tell her until I am blue in the face ( or purple?) that no one in the local area will hire me but she just thnks i'm lying or something.
On top of all this joyous shit my mom has gotten a dog for my undeserving sister. I want to talk to someone about this but for what? All I''ll be accused of is being EMO or just whining for the sake of attention. I dunno. Maybve fasting and praying will help. I just have to remember teh praying part when I lay down. Though recently it has been like....I have been going to bed way too late again which I was trying not to do.