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[s0methingdeeper]

So yeah. It is about 4 a.m., and I really can't sleep. Lots of coffee will do that to you. I can't even remember the last time I even looked at Livejournal. Weird. Life is weird at the moment. My relationships with both of my sisters completely suck. They have both lost thier damn minds. I miss them. Me and my mother aren't getting along as well as we usually do, and I worry for her. My grandmother might have cancer once again on top of a heart problem, which is breaking mine. My little brother is still not walking, and if he doesn't within the next year, studies say he never will. My dad is a heartless bastard who is pissing me off with matters that I can't even bring myself to put into words, plus a couple of other things that are also causing my heart to ache.
I wish that I could just snap my fingers to make everything better, but that obviously isn't going to happen.

I have to say though, that this summer was probably the best one yet. I went to South Dakota to a reservation for about a month, and spent almost another one on a road trip to California. A trip that I loved and will never forget, but also one that I never want to relive if that makes sense. lol. My new favorite place in the world is Cloudcroft, New Mexico. I think everyone should go there. My other favorite place was the 39th pier in San Fransisco. We rode the carousel. Good times.

Hopefully things get better soon...