great book
"i didnt know how much i depended on, being depended on. by her."
"man, sometimes i miss her so much that i feel as if im burning up with missing her. as if im getting reay to break apart, to just disintergrate. like the space shuttle did over texas."
"theres a full moon tonight. drifting through the sky like a sad ghost. gazing down at me. with these real soft ees, as though it understands. how pathetic is that? the only person on the entire world that i can actually relate to is the man on the moon."
"i know 15 is way to old to jump in the leaves, and i havent actually done it in years. the truth is, i wouldnt be caught dead jumping in the leaves now, but i guess i like knowing that they were there. just in case."
"the way it filled the air
with the musky smell
of earth.
they way it painted
the streets
with glistening neon light,
the way it turned
the inside of your Mustang
into a snug cocoon.
now
i hate
the rain.
i hate it
for reminding me
of that night last summer.
when the rain
licked at my lashes
while your lips covered mine.
i used to love the rain
you used to love
me."
"as if he loved me. but he loves me not. and he never did."
"i see a broken beer bottle,
its thousand shattered pieces
glittering the sidewalk.
and completely out of nowhere
this tidal wave of sadness
comes crashing down over me.
what the heck is the matter with me?
why am i standing here like a jerk feeling sorry for a bottle?
i stare at all those shards,
flinting tragically in the sun,
and my heart just about splits in two.
poor smashed thing,
so demolished, so devastated,
so smithereened..
whats up with me?
have i gone absolutely nuts?
dont answer that."