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So, things did not turn out the way I expected them to be. Not at all. My grandma has reached that point in her life. I remember the last time I visited her in the hospital. She seemed different. Not the same lola thatd get me KFC every afternoon when I came home from school, or who snuck salt in her food when my parents were gone. I remember how she looked at me as my mom asked her if she recognized me. She didnt speak, but I knew she still knew me. I didn't say much to her, because I did not know what to say. I've witnessed my mom struggle to take the best care of her, duties have barely been done at the house because my mom has devoted her time to my grandma. I understand, and I dont mind at all. Over the past few weeks I've heard my mom complain about how the care home wasnt taking good care of my grandma. Bedsores untreated and swelling overlooked by 'nurses' and 'doctors' but easily spotted by family members. Something was wrong. I've seen my mom cry too much latley, something I rarley see her do. I always find her reading her prayerbooks or holding her rosary. It hurts me to know what she [and the rest of the family] is going through. She called me this afternoon and promptly told me she had bad news. The vacation is canceled and my grandma could leave us anytime. I stared into blankess after that call, not entirely because the family wasnt going to hawaii anymore [that bummed me out only a bit], but because of the fact that I've never experienced a family member passing away and I never wanted it to happen. My mom told me my grandma is a fighter, and I believe that, it's in our blood to do so.
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'Nanay', you had 10 kids, you raised all of them successfully and brought about the family that I love and cherish now. You are the strongest most boldest person I've ever known that has lived generation through generation. Thank you for raising my mom to be the mom that she is to me now. Without you I wouldnt be here. Your the only lola I've got, please dont leave.
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I'm not looking for sympathy through this post. I just needed to get my thoughts out on something, and I didnt know who to talk to. Please pray for my grandma
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'Nanay', you had 10 kids, you raised all of them successfully and brought about the family that I love and cherish now. You are the strongest most boldest person I've ever known that has lived generation through generation. Thank you for raising my mom to be the mom that she is to me now. Without you I wouldnt be here. Your the only lola I've got, please dont leave.
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I'm not looking for sympathy through this post. I just needed to get my thoughts out on something, and I didnt know who to talk to. Please pray for my grandma