nicotine
So I've been quitting smoking. I say quitting as it's a progressive thing - not a all at once kind of thing. I've gone from around a pack a day, so about 20, to less than 10. Believe it or not that's a really big deal. Just now I've come in for my second cigarette today and I'm coming down from a huge buzz. Headrush. This is something I really noticed last night too, when I had my last one of the evening. The drug intake is having a more pronounced effect now that I'm trying to wean myself off of it and I've got a lower total amount in my system. I'm also noticing that I'm more likely to smoke a cigarette down to the point where it starts to burn my fingers, which is interesting.
This endeavor is different than the last time I quit, because last time I used the patch and quit rather quickly, and last time I did it for someone else - it wasn't for me.
That leads to another kind of dichotomy I'm dealing with... I want to quit because smoking is expensive and unhealthy, but I really like to smoke. It's something I enjoy and that makes this all the more difficult.
Everyone around me has been really supportive, though, and I really appreciate that. My goal is to have cut down to nothing by then end of the month. Fingers crossed.
This endeavor is different than the last time I quit, because last time I used the patch and quit rather quickly, and last time I did it for someone else - it wasn't for me.
That leads to another kind of dichotomy I'm dealing with... I want to quit because smoking is expensive and unhealthy, but I really like to smoke. It's something I enjoy and that makes this all the more difficult.
Everyone around me has been really supportive, though, and I really appreciate that. My goal is to have cut down to nothing by then end of the month. Fingers crossed.