I´ll always remember, that day in July..
Wow, I really need to update this more often..
Allright, so I´m in Brazil right now and so far it´been so much more different than I thought would be. I thought it would be straight partying and having another great summer in this place I love. So far I have cryed about a 5 times and I´ve only been here a week. The crying part is all when I leave, not when I first get here.
So first of all, I got attached to soo many amazing people in about two days. Including this one guy..Hot drummer with his tongue pierced. Mmm..and he was the sweetest guy, getting my food for me and tieing my shoes, lol. And yeah I cried when I left cause I didn´t and still don´t know when IO´m going to see him again..:[ So I leave there after two days sad.
Then I get here, where I am now, East Coast Brazil. The first couple days were great, soaking it up at the beach, beers in the sand...you know how we do..;] Then we get back one night, go to the hospital to visit my moms uncle whose been there for a month. So I guess he´s my great uncle. And at about 9 his heart stopped for the first time. They got it back to beat again, but then he ended up dying at about 11. At first it was hard seeing all my moms cousins, who are her age, hella sad cuz I pretty much consider them as my aunts. Then my moms cousins´ kids, who I consider my cousins, were hella crying. That just got me. We were all hella sad as soo many people showwed up at the hospital..
So today we went to the wake, mass and the burial.. I´ve never seen a dead body, it looked like it was made out of wax. He just laid there. The thing that also got me was that his wife is the one that I´m closer to. She just sat there when she found out that he was gone. Imagine how hard it would be to hear that your husband died. The one who was there through everything, all 10 kids (I know, holy shit). All people could do was tell her that he was in a better place. At the mass every person in the room was in tears at this one song that this guy sang. The whole setting was just soo depressing. I had never been to a funeral. I´d tryed so hard just to be strong but I just couldn´t when he starting singing. Every person was crying, even people not in the family like my cousins boyfreinds.. I swear, the saddest day of my life....
I was´nt that close to him, but jsut to see his wife in soo much pain that all she could do was sit there in shock and just tell herself that he´s gone. At the end of the day we went to cemetary and buried him. His whole grave was covered in flowers, you couldn´t see the name on the stone..
Hopefully the rest of my trip would´nt be so depressing..
I´ll update soon..
<33
In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside
It was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry..
Allright, so I´m in Brazil right now and so far it´been so much more different than I thought would be. I thought it would be straight partying and having another great summer in this place I love. So far I have cryed about a 5 times and I´ve only been here a week. The crying part is all when I leave, not when I first get here.
So first of all, I got attached to soo many amazing people in about two days. Including this one guy..Hot drummer with his tongue pierced. Mmm..and he was the sweetest guy, getting my food for me and tieing my shoes, lol. And yeah I cried when I left cause I didn´t and still don´t know when IO´m going to see him again..:[ So I leave there after two days sad.
Then I get here, where I am now, East Coast Brazil. The first couple days were great, soaking it up at the beach, beers in the sand...you know how we do..;] Then we get back one night, go to the hospital to visit my moms uncle whose been there for a month. So I guess he´s my great uncle. And at about 9 his heart stopped for the first time. They got it back to beat again, but then he ended up dying at about 11. At first it was hard seeing all my moms cousins, who are her age, hella sad cuz I pretty much consider them as my aunts. Then my moms cousins´ kids, who I consider my cousins, were hella crying. That just got me. We were all hella sad as soo many people showwed up at the hospital..
So today we went to the wake, mass and the burial.. I´ve never seen a dead body, it looked like it was made out of wax. He just laid there. The thing that also got me was that his wife is the one that I´m closer to. She just sat there when she found out that he was gone. Imagine how hard it would be to hear that your husband died. The one who was there through everything, all 10 kids (I know, holy shit). All people could do was tell her that he was in a better place. At the mass every person in the room was in tears at this one song that this guy sang. The whole setting was just soo depressing. I had never been to a funeral. I´d tryed so hard just to be strong but I just couldn´t when he starting singing. Every person was crying, even people not in the family like my cousins boyfreinds.. I swear, the saddest day of my life....
I was´nt that close to him, but jsut to see his wife in soo much pain that all she could do was sit there in shock and just tell herself that he´s gone. At the end of the day we went to cemetary and buried him. His whole grave was covered in flowers, you couldn´t see the name on the stone..
Hopefully the rest of my trip would´nt be so depressing..
I´ll update soon..
<33
In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside
It was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry..