I really love this old music thing, it's always been my dream...
Yeah, that last post was not needed. Lol. <33
Wow, I havn't updated in a while. I'm excited, Tylar's birthday thing is in a lil, then she gets her license & that's gonnna be sick. Andd, over spring break I'm going to Paris!! I'm so fucking excited. I can't wait.
But, today was pretty shitty, like alot of days lately. It sucks, things being like this. I don't know why it's like this too. Maybe I'm depressed or crazy, maybe both. Who knows.
Like, things were all good till fourth period when the dean wanted to talk to me. She just told me that I seem like sucha an angry person and sad. I was like, umm..what am I sapoost to say to that? So you pretty much think I'm depressed & pissed off. Sorry I don't fucking run around with a smile on my face all the time. I'm not that kinda person. What I just don't fucking get is ever sence she talked to my mom when I got suspended, it's like my mom just fucking tells her the world, and now I hafta talk to the dean & come back to P.E. crying & have a shitty ass day cuz of her. And it's all because of my fucking mom and her mouth. I wanna move out soo bad & just get the away from here. So people don't have to be all "worried" about me & they won't have to "take care" of me like everyone feels like they havta do. Fucking rediculous. Do I come off as some crazy ass depressed person? I seriously wanna know. I have reasons to be the way I am, so theres no use in trying to change me or whatever the fuck they wanna do. I'm hella hurt too, that they think that. Most of the time I'm usually laughing and having a good time at lunch, and now the deans say that they see me during lunch and I seem sad and angry?? Whatever. Stop fucking jugding me. It's bullshit. All of it.
I've needed someone for a long time. Not just someone to fuck around with. Someone who truly cares about me. I need someone like that, allthough I still want that one person who never really cared and all he ever wanted were a few booty calls. Yeah. Great.
I promise I can't live without cha
God knows that I need a lover
And it hurts so bad,
Sometimes I cry
Wow, I havn't updated in a while. I'm excited, Tylar's birthday thing is in a lil, then she gets her license & that's gonnna be sick. Andd, over spring break I'm going to Paris!! I'm so fucking excited. I can't wait.
But, today was pretty shitty, like alot of days lately. It sucks, things being like this. I don't know why it's like this too. Maybe I'm depressed or crazy, maybe both. Who knows.
Like, things were all good till fourth period when the dean wanted to talk to me. She just told me that I seem like sucha an angry person and sad. I was like, umm..what am I sapoost to say to that? So you pretty much think I'm depressed & pissed off. Sorry I don't fucking run around with a smile on my face all the time. I'm not that kinda person. What I just don't fucking get is ever sence she talked to my mom when I got suspended, it's like my mom just fucking tells her the world, and now I hafta talk to the dean & come back to P.E. crying & have a shitty ass day cuz of her. And it's all because of my fucking mom and her mouth. I wanna move out soo bad & just get the away from here. So people don't have to be all "worried" about me & they won't have to "take care" of me like everyone feels like they havta do. Fucking rediculous. Do I come off as some crazy ass depressed person? I seriously wanna know. I have reasons to be the way I am, so theres no use in trying to change me or whatever the fuck they wanna do. I'm hella hurt too, that they think that. Most of the time I'm usually laughing and having a good time at lunch, and now the deans say that they see me during lunch and I seem sad and angry?? Whatever. Stop fucking jugding me. It's bullshit. All of it.
I've needed someone for a long time. Not just someone to fuck around with. Someone who truly cares about me. I need someone like that, allthough I still want that one person who never really cared and all he ever wanted were a few booty calls. Yeah. Great.
I promise I can't live without cha
God knows that I need a lover
And it hurts so bad,
Sometimes I cry